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PathStep 18 Compassion hearts42 Forum posts15 Forum upvotes25 Current upvotes25 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2025 Member sinceDecember 29, 2024
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  • 18
  • Music is my cope
  • Fantastic Mr. Fox is my favorite movie
  • I enjoy dreaming
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Journal: My Nook
Journals & Diaries / by Mino1522
Last post
 5 hours ago
...See more I'm going to make this my journal. To express myself and my thoughts. So I don't go crazy! Be warned of the path that bestows ahead of you traveller. 🫡 Most likely it will be just rants, venting, or some way to get my mind off stuff. I will take advice, comments, and questions (depending how intricate). I'm open to just chattin it up too. With every entry I'll write a word that described my day. I'll just start off for today's entry Perseverant I think today was fine. As most days are. My dad is sick these last two days. Im taking care of him. And the pets. Yesterday I had 2 job interviews that went fine; 1 for a Rbt therapist another for a Substitute teacher assistant and that night I spoke with my sister about how we could help our financial situation better, with saving more and cutting out some stuff also we include our mom more. For Rbt i would need to commit to it. The sub one is good, but I need to take tests and I dont have insurance yet so Im also trying to get that for my sister and I. The process is annoying. Im introverted and dont really like being around people for a long time, but im adaptable and i manage, and when it goes nice its nice. I understand being an Rbt is demanding and that it'll take effort. But I do like to help, i just think i would be more of a background assistance. But i my parents especially disliked the idea or working with austic children. They just base everything on their experiences around them as the whole situation. I dont how true it is, but they say most of those children are violent and chaotic. That their personalities switch up. I argued with my dad about it; I always try to let him see that not everyone is a certain way. Or just being the neutral guy. So i guess that job isnt for me. :/ But mainly because of the commitment and they want me to study for their certificates and i want somewhere, to where i work and come home to do a certification for me. So thats where the Substitute Assistant comes in. I actually like that idea, but like i said insurance and doctors. So i guess ill be holding off for longer. 😮‍💨 Im sick of feeling useless and I want to be more. I know im not much of a person. So if not for myself. Ill perservere for my puppy. Hes everything to me right now. And ill be better for him. Hes smart, pretty, and silly. Hes a precious boy. ❤️ Tbh i think he saved me. Ever since i got him i became more productive and less slow and think about more than the present. I feel myself being more responsible and i want to maintain if not push further. Idk. I mean even saying that, I question.... does that make me pathetic? Am i that low? But hey ill just leave that there. I felt like I was being grumpy today I dont want to. I dont want to be pessimistic or negative, but im told i am. I thought k was realistic, but sometimes i do realize i could've been more optimistic. Maybe i have a resting 🐶 face but i even felt it inside today. While grocery shopping, I felt like idk grumpy cat. I told my dad about saving and cutting back, but my sister and he still get their wants. We’ve saved more, though. I don’t want to be cheap or sour. I just don’t need much in life. I have dreams and wishes, but they’re just that, and I can focus on what I need. Still, part of me hold me back that just wants to relax and chill. It saddens me how much money can hold people back and take a piece of them, but that’s another rant.
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Learning to Open up I guess
Newbie Hub / by Mino1522
Last post
 January 1st
...See more Hi, Im new, so Im just getting used to this. Im not good at seeking help, but I want to be better, I think. I always find it hard to get into something, but once Im in it, I lock into it, but then drop it. Hopefully, this is something that sticks. My mental health has slowly declined and deteriorated through these last months. So I've been thinking about therapy, but sadly, I dont have insurance, so I wouldn't want to get my family to pay for something that they dont think is necessary. All these online therapies end up just wanting to take your money, and so far, 7Cups seems to be nice. The community is diverse and kind. I haven't gotten to a Listener yet because im nervous, so idk. Its nice that its an optional thing to pay for the extra stuff, but I'm glad there's something free for me and people alike. I find it hard to talk to people and push myself out there so I'll just start with these threads. I want to feel better, I really do, but I feel like Im not strong enough. I dont self-harm so Im grateful it hasn't gotten to that. But its just a dread that I feel that drags me down. Then I just want to cry and I feel soft or annoying even thinking about it. I don't want to rant so Ill just end it there.
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HS Grad limbo
Friendship Support / by Mino1522
Last post
 December 30th
...See more Turning 18 has been frustrating, mainly because making friends is hard. In high school, there were circumstances that made it easier. I'm grateful for the friends I made, but now that I've graduated, I don't know how to make new ones. I feel stuck in limbo, where people are either too mature or too young for me. In school, everyone was my age, so making connections was easier, but now I feel awkward talking to anyone under 18. I also feel like everyone my age is progressing with college or work, while I’m not. I thought I wanted college, but I felt forced into it and decided against it. Now I’m trying to get a job and certifications, but I feel at a disadvantage with no experience and me taking this long. The only people I talk to are my family, which is draining. I have one friend, but she’s ahead of me, so I feel like a drag. I’ve always been the weird kid ***, but learned to like and accept it, but it feels harder in "real life". So idk what to do. I came here for help, but I got nervous and then decided against it. Im ok writing my thoughts ***. I just feel like Im the only one lost.
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Accepted the Closet
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Mino1522
Last post
 December 31st
...See more (For reference Im 18) I've pretty much accepted the fact that I will stay in the closet, family wise, at least. And for that to be secure, I make sure I'm in the closet with things outside of that. Ill always just say Im cis and straight. I dont think I would ever want to even experience coming out to them. I have a lesbian aunts, and they've gotten backlash. They live happy, but still. I dont want to deal with some other issue. Also, I feel like even associating myself with the LGBTQ+ comes with issues, and I just want to chill. I do dress how I want and do the things I like that won't change. Although, my friends are the only ones that know to an extent. I feel like at this point with them I just say "yeah im queer thats it" But really I think Im bigender plus gay, but Ive changed what Ive said so much, because I was learning and Im not good with the labels. I just know Im me, and that's all. <3
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