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MakingANicknameIsHard
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Hi I'm Ems!

❤️  Alexo0010 ❤️

(He's my fav person, show him some love if you meet him! But dont tell him I told you that 🤫)


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Am I a bad person for this?
General Support / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 June 25th
...See more I am forgetful. It isn't any condition I struggle with, but it is something I deal with every day. I just have so much in my head that I easily forget little things I need to do. So, a few days ago my father fell and dislocated his arm (his dominant arm). He went to the hospital, and the doctor told him to wear an arm sling for around 2 weeks, for the arm to heal. He doesn't wear the sling. He prefers not to. One day, while my mother and I were at school (she teaches there), he messaged the both of us saying that his arm has dislocated again. Since my mother wasn't checking her texts, I told him she was unavailable. He didn't reply me, and I didn't feel that this was a big medical emergency (he certainly didn't really act so when we arrived home). When we were driving home, I forgot to tell her that he had dislocated his arm. On arriving, he found out that I hadn't told her about his arm. I understand why he got mad, but I don't really feel guilty about it after he started insulting me. He accused me of being vain and selfish, and that I only care for myself, and nobody else. He repeatedly attacked me with these accusations, until I stormed up to my room. I heard him and my mother discussing if he should go to the hospital. They eventually did. Now his arm is worse and he needs to wear his sling for a month without removing it. That was yesterday, now he still shows me bitterness. He tries to assert that this is his house and he can do what he wants. I may be a bad person in thinking this but I wish that his arm is permanently weakened, as it is his dominant arm. Weakened in the sense that he is still independent, but cannot hit things with as much force/ease as before. I wish this on him because he scared me in the past. On a few occasion, he has hit me before; but not hard enough to actually bruise me. There are also times when I locked my bedroom door, just to hear him beat it while yelling at me to let him in. This scared me, I still feel scared when I see him at least somewhat angry. However, not anymore. His dominant arm is injured and he cannot do that anymore. Am I a bad person for forgetting him? Am I a bad person for wishing harm on him? Please, I want to know.
I want some people like me
General Support / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 April 28th
...See more I don't know why I've never fit in. I mean, I try my best to fit in, I don't intentionally act mean. But for some reason, people just aren't interested in me, and I never seem to get any real connection. I can't find anyone who likes the things I do, and I don't really talk about what I like anymore because everyone thinks I'm boring, I'm showing off, or "ew what is that". I don't like being weird, so I tried doing what everyone else does. I did all the trends on *** or tried to tune into what everyone is talking about. Everyone says I'm quiet, but I really just want to talk about the things that interests me, it'd be nice to have someone listen. But no-one cares, people would rather look at their phones. I really want to find someone who at least will look me in the eye and listen as if I was interesting. I think they don't like me, but I don't think I did anything to make them angry. People act like I haven't a voice, when I do try to talk I am spoken over, I hate being spoken over by the more well-liked people. Everyone just turns their attention to them and forget me. It even happened on my 7 or 8th birthday, it was the only birthday I ever had where my parents let me have a party at home. Everyone ignored me, on my own birthday. I tried my best to play in whatever games they were doing but I was nobody, apparently. I think that my whole life was spent trying to be the center of attention for once, to have all eyes adoring me for me. I know I sound needy but I just really want to find someplace new, someplace where I can find people like me, or even people who just care enough not to ignore me constantly. My mom always said I was dramatic and attention-seeking, and I think this is true because the only way for me to be interesting is if there is some drama revolving around me, many years ago I even pretended to have a crush on some popular guy just so I can get attention. I never liked him. But now I don't like being in the center of drama, I am basically forgotten. Now I think of it, I remember some popular kid hosted birthday parties every year when I was in primary school, I always wanted to go because she lived just down the road from me and I heard she always had the best parties. My mom never let me go, so every year I just watched it from my window, then hear everyone talk about it in school for the next week. I'm never invited anymore because everyone knows I wouldn't come. Wow I kinda went on a rant there, this is getting kinda long. If you made it this far, thank you for reading it all ❤️
What's the point of trying anymore?
General Support / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 March 21st
...See more My words don't have meaning. Nobody ever cares about what I say so what is the point of talking?
Just a short story. Any feedback please?
Reading & Writing / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 February 15th
...See more "Oh my god, are you blushing?" The villain’s face filled with heat, their eyes staring down. The hero wore a charming smile as they stepped closer, and villain could feel those lovely coffee-colored eyes burning into them. "Just kill me already" villain muttered, becoming more embarrassed with every step hero took. "I'd never kill an admirer," hero bent down to observe villain’s expression, before rather cruelly perhaps, pressing a soft kiss to their lips. It would've probably felt good, if only it wasn't overpowered by a sharp pain in hero's stomach. Hero staggered back, hand wrapping around something protruding from them. A knife? Villain’s flustered face now turned more genuine, a smug grin spread ear to ear. "You wouldn't, but I would~" 
Insecure about my appearance
General Support / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 January 6th
...See more I just feel like I look weird. Sometimes when I look at a mirror I feel that my hair is frizzy and ugly, it is out of control.  I sometimes feel like my face is too round and fat, (Probably because of my my mom's comments 👍), even though I am underweight and have been my entire life. But my biggest insecurity is my mouth. I wear invisalign. I have special attachments at the side of my invisalign which kinda pushes against my cheek, making it look like there is something in my mouth 24/7. The invisalign also makes my teeth look weird, I don't like to smile too wide and show them, even before I had them I didn't like showing teeth when I smile. Other than the invisalign, I hate my teeth because they have this faint yellow tint that just would not turn white no matter how much I brush ☹️ Why can't my teeth just look normal and white? I'm now insecure about my smile 😞 I just feel ugly sometimes.  I'm scared other people also think I'm ugly. I sometimes feel unwanted. And I can't really change what I look like 🤕
Write a sad snippet 👍
Reading & Writing / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 November 24th, 2023
...See more Feeling kinda sad recently 👍 I'd love to see what kind of thought - inspiring or melancholy snippets you guys can create!
Just a snippet I wrote. Any feedback?
Reading & Writing / by MakingANicknameIsHard
Last post
 November 23rd, 2023
...See more " It hurts my feelings when you go. You are my oxygen, without you I suffocate on all these emotions because you were the only one who could control them. " What do you think of this ? Can I improve it idk
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