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MHFiver
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PathStep 23 Compassion hearts1,205 Forum posts7 Forum upvotes15 Current upvotes15 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2023 Member sinceFebruary 28, 2018
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I do not like this world. It confuses me and leaves me with distressed emotions, which leads to anxiety and stress.


I cannot connect to people anymore. All my thoughts have many biases that confuse me even more. I cannot deal with my emotions and i feel I'm going insane.


I have nothing to look forward to. Nothing i do means anything to me. This world does not have anything to offer that i want. I stopped looking for things i would like.


I live inside my head now. People pull me out of it when they need me. I don't want to be needed. I want to be forgotten so I can live inside my head forever.


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[TW] Through other eyes...
Reading & Writing / by MHFiver
Last post
 February 6th, 2022
...See more The people were, at last, together. Many tongues, heads and hands, once distant and antagonistic, now waved in unison against a common foe. Someone so despicable, malevolent and blasphemous, that all the quarrels they once had seemed like a mild disagreement. That someone...was me. I could fathom the sight from my place. Sworn enemies, side by side, finally had a reason to absorb and comprehend each other. By channeling their hatred away from their old rivalries, they now could see how humane they all really were, compared to the bestial brutality of my acts and ways. I was moved by it. Tears went down my face, as I realized that my goal was complete. Never again would their savage nature be directed towards their kin. This earth-shattering experience would forever change their minds. They had a common enemy. A sandbag to beat up their fury out. A demon they could always put blame on. With my blood, splattered on your weapons and garments, your anger and wrath will no longer flow between your fellow humans. I have become the antichrist, and with my death, the antimartyr. I have given up my humanity, so that they could give up their sins. I will be remembered as the worst being to ever exist, and I will take the title with pride, for their evil will be put unto me, and never again back unto them.
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