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Luckyix
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PathStep 29 Compassion hearts266 Forum posts19 Forum upvotes16 Current upvotes16 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2023 Member sinceAugust 17, 2019
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He /Him ☆ 19 ☆ INFP

-I'm sorry if I come off as a little bit awkward I don't mean to.

-I go by Oliver. Lucky or Ollie is also ok as a nickname I like drawing and listing to podcast.

-I know I'm a little bit awkward online but I like talking to and helping others so don't be shy to talk to me I promise I'm not going to be rude or judgmental ♡

-if something I say is triggering or hurtful please let me know it's never my intention to make anyone uncomfortable


Recent forum posts
should I get checked for an ed?
Eating Disorder Support / by Luckyix
Last post
 October 18th, 2022
...See more I'm sorry for the long post. I have always been underweight ever since I was a child but recently I've been getting more and more particular about my food. Before moving to college I did not eat very much simply because I wasn't hungry but now I find myself going out of my way to not eat and counting the calories in everything. I try to eat under 1,000 calories a day and im pretty good at doing that because I eat one meal a day if that. But I found a diet that requires you to eat less than 500 calories every day and I wonder if I would lose weight and get a flat stomach like I want if I tried that. It's really starting to spiral out of control for me because I used to not think about what I eat even though I ate very little but now I feel bad about eating things that have a high calorie count. Ive only eaten two cookies today but I felt terrible about it because they were 230 calories each and that took up almost my entire 500. I'm definitely not over weight but I just don't feel like I'm happy with where my body is at I feel like I am not as skinny as I should be. I've tried exercising but it's hard for me to stay consistent with it as I also struggle with depression. It's much easier and cheaper for me to not eat than to go exercise or make the effort to cook healthy meals. I don't know if the way I eat is an eating disorder of the early signs of it because this is relatively new for me but I have always been someone who undereats. Especially when I'm sad I completely lose my appetite and have gone over two days without eating I already struggle with self harm and depressive episodes and other physical conditions so the idea that I may start having an eating disorder on top of that is really stressing me out. I don't know if I should try and seek help for these behaviors or if this is something that's normal that most people go through. I would really appreciate any feedback.
I need help with my Tourettes
Disability Support / by Luckyix
Last post
 March 22nd, 2022
...See more I'm not sure if tourettes is considered a disability but I have been having a lot of problems with it. My tics we're very mild for a long period of time but have started to ramp back up again. My only guess as to why is maybe from stress from getting ready to graduate and move into college. My tics have gone from barely noticeable unless triggered to almost constant in the past few weeks and they haven't been this bad since I first developed them. They have not caused me any severe disruptions in my life other than being painful, annoying, and embarrassing but I would really like some advice on what methods of calming down could potentially be helpful or just to know that other people understand what I'm feeling and that I'm not alone or going crazy. I do not know many people who suffer from tics in real life and I am afraid to watch YouTubers who have the disorder now for fear of worsening my tics or picking up vulgar ones. It makes me feel very lonely and isolated and it's embarrassing to know that i can't even control my own voice or movements. I am really worried about the implications of them suddenly getting worse and It has been really disheartening to think I'm doing so much better and then all of the sudden get hit with this. If anyone understands what I'm going though or has any advice I would really appreciate it.
Comfort (drawing)
Self-Harm Recovery / by Luckyix
Last post
 July 20th, 2021
...See more This is an old drawing I made related to the feeling of being hospitalized for self harm TW for iv drips and hospital gowns https://oyasumilucky.neocities.org/DA041EFB-2F70-4347-999F-6BA8C372D628.jpeg
Relapse (tw)
Self-Harm Recovery / by Luckyix
Last post
 August 12th, 2021
...See more I thought I was doing ok but I ended up relapsing last night I feel like I need to tell someone but I don't want my issues to become a burden on my love ones and ive already been hospitalized three times for self harm and suicide attempts and the hospital definitely didn't help me The only person I could tell struggles with self harm urges too and to tell her could trigger her or cause her to panic and I couldn't do that to her. I've also been seeking out drugs as a form of coping I have access to them if I want them and the idea is very tempting but I know it's just going to become another adiction of mine that will turn into self harm. I'm not looking for any advice I just wanted to get that off my chest I guess I don't really have any one to talk to unfortunately.
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