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LucianX
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PathStep 51 Compassion hearts162 Forum posts27 Forum upvotes114 Current upvotes114 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2022 Member sinceFebruary 19, 2022
Bio

60 year old Pagan man

Living The Magickal Life....


I'm a proponent for marijuana

Decriminalization and legalization

And have been for 45 years


My life has been a strange one, to say the very least


I despise organized religion,

Anyone or anything

That attempts to interfere

In me living my life the

Way that I choose

I do not answer to any

God, good, evil or otherwise

I answer to myself

I'm responsible for me

The idea of god is

A complete fallacy to me

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Recent forum posts
Naturally Beautiful.....
50 & Over Community / by LucianX
Last post
 November 24th, 2022
...See more The true beauty of Nature is all around us. I hope everyone is healthy and well.
Death and Anger
50 & Over Community / by LucianX
Last post
 November 11th, 2022
...See more Does anyone else deal with anger issues? (Please overlook the language. It's how I speak) I mean, I turned 60 this year. You must understand that with the lifestyle that I led I wasn't sure I would make it to 30. Then 40 passed, 50, and now....what the hell do I do?! I've become the personification of the Cantankerous Old Man! Basically....I'm an asshole. And I came to 7 Cups with the wrong attitude. I've been rude to a couple of Listeners and to those I Apologize. In February 2021 my Mother passed away from Parkinson's. She suffered horribly and I felt completely helpless. Now mind you, I'm a 6'1 bearded heavily tattooed man and I'm Bipolar 1 with Psychotic Features. Not much gets to me as far as my emotions but my moms passing and the way she suffered literally broke me totally. My mom was the one in the family who was always handing out to others, always giving. She was the matriarch of the huge family and now that she's gone absolutely no one in the family, including my brother who I love dearly, will have anything to do with me at all. I've been alone since. I guess that's what being an asshole gets me. So now no family, maybe one or two occasional friends, just me and Ruby my little dog. I'm not sure what has happened. I was always a very social person and now I don't leave my home unless it's absolutely necessary. And I try to deal with all this anger by myself and I must say that I haven't been very successful. If I offend here on this app, anyone, allow me to apologize in advance. I'm lost, confused, and flailing around.
Raging
50 & Over Community / by LucianX
Last post
 April 12th, 2022
...See more I'm angry. I posted something yesterday concerning the issues I'm currently dealing with. As far as I know I have received no replies, no one has reached out or bothered responding. So if I'm not getting any assistance here then maybe I should look elsewhere. Comment removed by AffyAvo April 11, 2022 see #2 & 5 [https://www.7cups.com/forum/SafetyKnowledgeat7Cups_181/CommunityGuidelines_1374/ExpandedForumGuidelinesMasterpost_167937/] Because nothing is absolutely what I've gotten from 7Cups.
....raging myself into Hell....
Newbie Hub / by LucianX
Last post
 April 18th, 2022
...See more Has anyone experienced rage so consuming and completely overwhelming that you literally could not sit still for hours? I'm Jeff, I'm 59 years old. I identify as Pagan, and I live alone in a small North Georgia city. In February 2021 my Mother passed away after an excruciating battle with Parkinson's Disease. I was never able to really grieve over her passing and it confused me. We were very close. Since then my inability to mourn has frustrated me and I've grown extremely angry, to the point of being furious. At times even the slightest thing sets me completely off. I have never directed my anger toward another person unless I was blatantly provoked. But since I really am unfamiliar with healthy ways of dealing with this, things are only getting worse. I realize that I need help, an outlet. And I've been reaching out for months now, to no avail. So I'm here night after night unable to sleep trying to contain all this. I don't know what to do....
I Have No Idea....
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by LucianX
Last post
 April 7th, 2022
...See more Hey I'm Jeff. I'm 59 and I live with my little adopted dog Ruby. I was diagnosed decades ago as Bipolar 1 with Psychotic Features. I'm very much a private person and so therapy, especially in this format, is a little difficult. But.... I seem to be needing an outlet. My psychosis doesn't manifest in violence. But I do suffer from extreme anger. I've never so much as touched another person in anger. I try to keep it inside. But I'm looking for healthy ways to deal with this.
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