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LoverOfTheOcean
7,351 M Moving Along 6
PathStep 22 Compassion hearts200 Forum posts83 Forum upvotes86 Current upvotes86 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2024 Member sinceApril 19, 2019
Bio

My name is Ocean, 27.

I like listening to music and watching movies and series. I love the beach and oceans.

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Struggling with some stuff like social anxiety, the aftermath of a breakup/being friends with my ex, handling my emotions.

I've been told I could be an HSP (highly sensitive person), but they weren't 100% sure about it.

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Recent forum posts
Looking for friends
20 & Over Community / by LoverOfTheOcean
Last post
 May 5th, 2023
...See more Hi 👋 I like to try making new friends on here. You can call me Ocean, I'm 26, pronouns are she/her. I love the ocean, watching movies/series, listening to music. I sometimes draw, and like playing volleyball. Lately I've been studying for work (I work in a drugstore with natural based products). What have you been upto lately? Wishing whoever reads this a lovely day 💕🐚
@LoverOfTheOcean personal space
Journals & Diaries / by LoverOfTheOcean
Last post
 December 7th, 2023
...See more Hello everyone!! I want to create a space for myself so I can vent and deal with my emotions and such. I don't always feel like talking to people f2f about what's going on and picking up a pen to write is sometimes harder than typing it out. So I thought I'd use this space as a personal diary. Support and advice is always welcome. Right now I'm dealing with mixed feelings about my ex. As in we decided we'd still be friends, but I find it hard to navigate this friendship, since I still have feelings for him. There's part of me that wants to get back but knows I should move forward and it's the hardest thing I've ever been through so far. It's like I'm constantly fighting off this fantasy I created in my head and I can't seem to shake it off just yet. My mind keeps drifting off to what could have been. But I also have thoughts where I'm like, I'm so done with this I'm going to move forward now. It's exhausting. I'll be focusing on myself for the rest of the day. I made a planning and I'm gonna stick to it for once. To whoever reads this I wish you a lovely day filled with joy! That's all for today, probably.
False hope
Poetry / by LoverOfTheOcean
Last post
 April 9th, 2023
...See more So I sort of only write poetry for myself when I'm feeling really sad or have other strong feelings. And I thought why not start sharing them. Since I usually keep them to myself, this terrifies me, but here goes. False hope You gave me false hope Over and over And I actually believed we could make it That we could be But now you told me the truth The truth I refused to believe The truth I already knew In a way you set me free I now have clarity I can move forward And won't ponder to wait -Ocean
Asking help for a friend
Depression Support / by LoverOfTheOcean
Last post
 March 7th, 2023
...See more A friend of mine is very depressed and with the new year starting it's acting up badly. He's tired and feels very sad, because last years have been very hard on him. He also told me he feels he won't get anywhere this year and that his will to live is running short. I'm trying my best to support him and be there for him, even when I'm in a different country at the moment. I try to keep in touch with him everyday. I don't want him to hurt himself, and I just wish I could do anything for him to make things better. I know there's not much I can do, but be supportive and there when he needs someone. But if anyone has another suggestion how I can help him get through his depression, or has any ideas on what to say to someone with depression that helps ease the sadness. Please let me know. Thanks in advance! And I wish all of you the best! - Ocean
I feel like I just need to get all of this off my chest
Relationship Stress / by LoverOfTheOcean
Last post
 December 27th, 2022
...See more My ex and I broke up some weeks ago, but we said we'd still be friends, and agreed on some rules. For example, if we'd find someone else who we want to take things further with, we'd tell each other before acting on it. Now, I know that he's seeing a friend whom my ex has feelings for. She told him she has feelings for him too and even told him she loves him. The thing that bothers me about this is, is she's in a relationship with someone else (not my ex). And she wants her relationship to get better. And yet she keeps seeking a lot of attention from my ex, so much so that he's told me that he's getting annoyed. Which I think is selfish and unfair towards my ex, and honestly to her boyfriend too. Note my ex and I are on good terms, so naturally I don't want him to get hurt. And still he goes to see her a lot of the time, he still replies to her messages. Even when he doesn't feel like talking, he answers instead of telling her to leave him alone for a bit. She just keeps demanding his time and attention. And I know it's not really my business, but it still bothers me, a lot. It just makes me very angry and confused too. I might also be upset about it because before she came into his life we were in a relationship. And if she never came into his life we probably still would be in said relationship. But he tells me that he's confused about his feelings, because he still loves me too and wishes to see me, preferably everyday. But also because he likes that friend. And also told me he needs time to figure out what he wants, which is understandable. I just can't help feeling that sometimes I feel like I'm wasting my time waiting for him to make a decision. Even though a bigger part of me wants to try again. Now I'm not saying that I'm perfect or that I did everything right, no, I know I need to work on things too, and I am. I just don't want him to get hurt, because he's been through so much pain in his life already. Does anyone have any advice or tips on how to deal with this? Please feel free to share your opinion and wisdom. And to whomever is reading: thank you. - Ocean
Am I enough?
Relationship Stress / by LoverOfTheOcean
Last post
 December 3rd, 2022
...See more So we've only been together since June, and at first everything was going well. Lately we've been having issues. I'm not very good at communication, and he's pointed out that he needs clear communication multiple times. Which makes sense and I agree, and I'm working really hard to get better at my communication skills. Though, for me, it feels like the efforts that I make are not enough for him. Like he's told me that he does see me taking steps forward. But for me it somehow doesn't feel like it's enough. Like I'm not growing fast enough. Like I'm not enough. He's also said that I lied about my mental health, even though I sometimes don't realize I've had bad mental health days. Especially when I'm feeling happy. But yes, I deeply regret not telling him about it though. And it's affecting our relationship in a bad way. And I don't want to lose him. Now it's gotten to the point where we both agreed to take a step back. Like seeing eachother less. We love each other very much, but we both are dealing with our own mental health. Which makes things slighly harder. For the record, he's had traumatic experiences and I've never really been diagnosed for anything, but am not feeling very well lately. Like I get intrusive thoughts and wanting something bad to happen to me. And the days getting darker earlier doesn't do me very well either. Thing is, I feel like he's pushing me away, like he doesn't love me anymore. He's being distant. And he told me that that's what happens when he gets really depressed, but he's also told me that he doesn't want to do that. Which messes with my head a lot. But honestly, I hope we can work it out. I miss him everyday I don't see or talk to him.
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