*Stay strong, no matter what *

Hello and welcome to LouLand!
My name is Louise but I prefer people to call me Lou. I dropped the 'ise' when I moved to where I am now, miles away from my hometown.

I am 20 but soon I will be 21 which means that I will be officially an adult, legally, everywhere in the world. This is scaaary but, oh well. Scary is exciting too.

I live in America. Lost somewhere between dreams and reality. I've heard some people call it The West Coast.

I love my brother. He is my best friend and the best man I have ever known.

I love ice and I love snow. Unfortunately, where I live now, I can only see snow in pictures.
I also LOVE the beach, especially at night. When everyone is gone and it's just me and the ocean. Silence..waves. ...Clarity.

Usually I fear the darkness, funny enough, my mind has been in a very dark place lately.

Darkness intrigues me.
The world looks better at night.
Sometimes in light I can't see anything and only in dark I can see clearly.
Although when I'm alone at home I always keep the light on.

Smoking is something that I enjoy, (regular cigarettes) and I'm fascinated by the images the smoke creates.

I am free but I feel trapped.
I am creative but my creativity is intermittent.

Swimming is my passion, so is art.
Art is my floating device, sometimes it's the only way I can express my messy and distorted mind.

I love food, anything with chocolate in it, blueberries and cinnamon tea. Books. Wine.

I strive to be normal but conforming to normality is not what I desire.

I don't usually like mainstream music but there is something about Adele that is just .... wow.


I have also recently discovered my love for cats, one cat in particular. She's AWESOME.

I am a dreamer. Reality scares me. But it is good to not lose your mind on a daily basis. It is good to stay awake.

You may or may not know me. In fact, I hardly know anything about myself too.
What matters is that I love people and I try to spread love into the world , and happiness and light.

This site has helped me a lot and I will do my best to help those who are struggling.
TOGETHER though , WE can find strength and solace in each other. I am here for you. People here helped me out a lot.
Did I mention I love cats?

Sometimes things are hard and you feel like you can't go on.It is scary. Sometimes I get drowned by life.. it feels like nothing could draw me out.
Every day I fight my own fears, sometimes they win, sometimes I do.

The battle goes on.

Sometimes I want to escape from the world, from myself, sometimes the world wants to escape from me.
However, I would like to believe that no matter what is going on around you, the sun will ALWAYS come. I've come to depend on that.

We are all stars, and one day, our time to shine will come.

Stay strong and keep holding on.
Take good care of yourself.

“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light.” - A. Dumbledore.

Thank you for reading.

Mischief managed.

Nox.