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...See more This is a long post. It's a crazy unique story. I hope some of you guys will listen and give me advice on this. So i met this guy at the beginning of last year (last fall) because we had a class together. I've been a really shy person my whole life and this year since in most of my classes I knew nobody, I wanted to be more social. Also I wanted to get over my last relationship which ended right before school started so I flirted around a little bit (nothing big just harmless flirting). And this guy I met I thought he was cute and nice so I started talking with him. Soon I developed a crush, but I didn't really think at the time that there would be anything there because he has friends that are girls and I thought I was just one of them. Turns out I was wrong. In December he admitted to me that he liked me and wanted to go out sometime. At the time I wasn't ready at all to be in a relationship again. I didn't really want one and I was scared of losing him as a friend because we were getting pretty close. I turned him down and he said it was okay and we kept as friends. From then on our friendship turned to a much deeper level. We got to know each other the most in January and it only made my feelings for him grow stronger. And I told him about my doubts about dating him. Mostly because we would only be able to date in school because my family doesn't approve of me dating and at this point I really didn't want to risk losing him. He reassured me though that I wouldn't lose him and it was fine keeping it a secret. So in February I felt ready and I told him and we started to date. I honestly felt so happy during that time we were together. He was basically my best friend and we were comfortable and open with how we felt about one another. We had an equal and happy relationship together and I have never felt happier than I was when we were together. He also suffers from anxiety and he told me that being around me helped him with his anxiety. We only dated for a month. That's because on the night of our one month he had a sudden panic attack. He had to go to his therapist at night and he came the school the next day exhausted. He ignored me for a few days after that. Finally I cornered him and asked for an explanation. He broke up with me because he was no longer emotionally stable for a relationship and told me he was now on suicide watch. We agreed to stay friends, but he told me he was going to be distant for a while. And it was fine for me at the time because I still had him as a somewhat friend. Eventually he just ignored me and ignored me for 2 months. That broke my heart. And after 2 months I finally got the nerve to ask him what was going on and he told me it was because he didn't think he deserved me and thought I was mad at him. We agreed to be friends again and he said he'd stop ignoring me. He kept his word for the most part. We talked in school again, but this was the end of the year. He texted me a few times at the beginning of summer, but now he's not talking to me again. Everyday I find myself missing him and I care so much about him. But I feel like I've tried so much to have a friendship with him and I don't feel like he cares anymore like at all. I want to get over him, but I really don't know how. I've told myself at this point we aren't ever going to get back together. I feel like I'm going crazy over this boy who I can't get off my mind. This stupid boy who won't even talk to me. And I just want to get over him once and for all. I think its harder for me because this kind of breakup doesn't usually happen. And no one around me can give me accurate advice cause they haven't experienced this before either. Even if you relate or not, I just hope some of you will give me advice as best as you can.

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