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Gay for one person?
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Lilachocolatecake
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 May 20th, 2024
...See more Heyy I'm 16 and until recently I was under the impression, that I'm straight since I felt attracted to men and I only had crushes on guys. Then a few months ago my mother and I started watching this tv show and I really liked this female character a bit in a way that I would usually have a crush on a male character. I ignored it by thinking that she was just my favorite character. Than I watched another show and when I started I realized that the same actress played on of the main characters in this show as well. I really liked her character in that show too but I again told myself that she was just my favorite character. Then about two weeks ago my mother and I were watching our tv show and I kinda realised that maybe I do have a bit of a crush on her and I felt really weird about it. I also rewatched that other show she was in, which definitely helped me realize Now I'm kinda confused because while I don't have a problem with anyone being gay, bi or whathever I just never thought I would be and I'm not really sure I am. I have never felt like this about any other female person at least not that I know of. Of course I saw other girls or women an thought they were beautiful but in this "wow she is so beautiful I wanna look like her" kind of way. I don't know if this makes sense. Or maybe I'm just overreacting? I mean this woman is not even a person I know in real life so it shouldn't be a problem right? So it's probably just a silly little celebrity crush but I just never had one of a woman. Or can you be gay for just one person? Should I just ignore it? I hope any of this makes sense
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How to cover up scars?
Self-Harm Recovery / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 May 3rd, 2024
...See more Hi I'm clean for about 4 month's witch is great but of course I still have visible scars on my left arm. Now that sommer is coming I hate having to wear long sleeves again like the last 2 years while everyone else walks around in shirts. I think my scars are sort of healed but they are white if you know what I mean so they are definitely visible. Does anyone have tips on how to cover them up without wearing long sleeves?
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(Long vent) Worried about a friend
Friendship Support / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 July 14th, 2023
...See more I have a friend. She moved away about two years ago. Before she moved away, she used to be one of my closest friends in school and outside. She had some problems with her family. Her mother practically bullied her and her father wasn't often home because of his job. She moved because of her father's job so that he could be home more often. Her parents at that especially her mother were a big thema. She kften didn't want to go home. After she moved we sorta lost contact, but some time ago we started texting again and started being close over text again. I told her my problems and she told me hers. Things with her family weren't much better. Her father was drinking and her mother was still mean sometimes. Not all the time, there seemed to be good moments with her parents. One evening we were texting because I had an panic attack early the day and suddenly she texted that she had to tell me something. She texted that I shouldn't worry but if something would happen to her it was her father. Long story short her father was drinking once again and she was scared he could do something to her. I tried to calm her down but she was scared to go to sleep, worried he could hurt her in her sleep. She also told me that her father was getting mad because of everything and that he was always yelling at her. Luckily, nothing happend to her. Sometimes when I text her it takes a week for her to answer so I always tell her not to worry and not to stress about texting me. Now she hasn't answered me in 20 days. All my messages arrived but she hasn't read any of them. I know I told her not hurry writing me but I am worried. Her father probably wouldn't actually hurt her but I'm still worried. Her mental health might be in a bad. There's also another reason why I'm worried. When she still lived here and we went to the same school we used to be close with another friend. We were usually together ,the three of us. We once had a conversation that went somehow „negative". She talked about wishing she was dead and of course we talked her out of it. A person probably has to go through a lot to kill herself and even though someone talks about wanting to be dead it doesn't mean the person is actually gonna do it but I'm still worried since I haven't head from her in so long. I apologize for my probably not correct English. It's not my first language.
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Therapist
Self-Harm Recovery / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 April 21st, 2023
...See more I am under 18 and I'm going into Therapy mostly because of my anxiety. I was wondering if I would to tell my therapist about my self harm would she have to tell my parents?
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School (vent)
Anxiety Support / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 January 13th, 2023
...See more I had Christmas holidays for three weeks but my holidays are ending and tomorrow I have school again. I just feel so scared. On Wednesday I have a French test and I'm so scared. I wish I just didn't had to go there. I'm scared that I'll have a panic attack in school on Monday
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Addiction
Addiction Support / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 January 14th, 2023
...See more I'm not sure if this is an internet addiction but I just spend the whole day watching TV shows on my and it's just wathever I do in my room I don't do it without watching TV. When I wake up on weekends or in the holidays I start watching. It kinda keeps me from learning or when I'm learning I learn and watch TV on the same time. I think it's also kinda a escape from reality because I just don't have to think about all the things that scare me in my real live. I also always wear my headphones so I am less in ,,the real world". My family is technically great but my brother for example is not really a silent person so the headphones kinda help shutting those noises out. On the one side I won't it to stop or get better because got example I don't know how my life is supposed to be when Im grown up and still watch TV the whole day and it kinda ruins my life. But on the other side it also makes my life more liveable so I don't want it stop. I don't know... I also think that my father is kind the same
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Telling someone
Self-Harm Recovery / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 January 15th, 2023
...See more I was for a bit over 200 days clean but I still want to sh again and I kinda did it again some weeks ago. I go to therapy for some weeks now but because of my panic attacks, social anxiety and anxiety in regular but no one knows about my sh. My parents are really supportive and my mom had Panic attacks herself but I am afraid to tell them and I am also afraid to tell my therapist. There is this friend in school and I recently had a panic attack in school and she sad the whole time with me and talked to me even after. And she also has experience with panic attacks and social anxiety and I told her that there is this thing (my sh) I probably I should tell someone but I can't because it's to bad and I'm embarrassed and I don't want people to see me different and she said that it's okay if I can't tell her but that I also always can vine to her and that she won't tell it anyone and that she won't judge me or anything. So in kinda thinking of telling her but I don't know how and if it ist really a good idea. So this is kinda a went but if someone can give me tips how to tell someone or if it is even a good idea to tell some I would be really grateful.
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Living a panic attack
Anxiety Support / by Lilachocolatecake
Last post
 December 22nd, 2022
...See more Does someone else sometimes feel like they living a panic attack? Like sometimes I just feel like my live is recently just one big panic attack. Because I just always feel scared. Does that make sense?
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