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Lexiii99
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Why is it so hard to focus on me.....and love myself I fucking hate this
PathStep 36 Compassion hearts3,750 Forum posts476 Forum upvotes684 Current upvotes684 Age GroupTeen Last activeFebruary, 2025 Member sinceFebruary 20, 2024
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Numbness runs through my vains. 






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The truth of my feelings.....
General Support / by Lexiii99
Last post
 Tuesday
...See more I’ve been struggling, and honestly, I’m not sure when or if I’ll feel okay again. I want to share what’s been happening in my life over the past three weeks. Before Valentine’s Day, I lost my best friend, and it’s been incredibly difficult for me to cope. The pain of that loss has left me questioning a lot about myself, and the more I think about it, the more it seems to deepen my feelings of self-doubt and sadness. I’m in a really tough spot right now, and it feels overwhelming to think about how drastically things have changed. I fully recognize that I played a significant role in losing her. It all started when she expressed that she didn’t want to end things, but my emotions got the better of me. I confided in my ex about my worries after someone informed me that  my best friend was talking about leaving me. This led to my ex becoming defensive and reaching out to the girl who had spread the lies. Unfortunately, this escalated into a heated argument involving me, my ex, and the girl who had misled us.  During the conflict, that same girl dragged my best friend into the drama, exacerbating the situation. To make matters worse, she unjustly placed the blame on my ex and me for her own struggles and the hurt she claimed to be experiencing. I can't help but think that this is completely unfair—after all, I was only trying to make sense of a confusing situation and sought support when I needed it.  I found myself blocked because she felt overwhelmed and needed some distance from our relationship. This situation feels particularly unfair to me, especially considering that I made numerous sacrifices and crossed several boundaries in my efforts to support her. Just the other day, I reached out via email to express my regrets and sincerely apologize for any hurt I may have caused. However, her response was disheartening; it felt as though my feelings and our connection meant nothing to her. This has left me feeling lost and confused about where we stand and how we got to this point. Throughout our time together, I provided her with support during some of her most challenging moments. It was a demanding period, and I often found myself suppressing my own emotions and needs, understanding that she was struggling deeply. I prioritized her well-being, listening to her fears and anxieties, and trying to be a source of comfort. It was difficult to set aside my own feelings, but I believed that being there for her was the right thing to do, even when it meant putting my own struggles on hold. I remained by her side through thick and thin, even as she asked me to sever ties with numerous friendships that meant a lot to me. I believed it was a necessary sacrifice for our relationship, but now I find myself feeling invisible and unimportant, as if all those efforts have amounted to nothing. ~Lexi, Mae, Lex / wtv u call me  Tagging those who may care :  @KiminoSuizouwoTabetai   @Maxisthebest @Sebastian1 @Orange64  @Comicisland  @SLytherinqueeen321 @Midnightmystique
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Self-care break-
General Support / by Lexiii99
Last post
 January 30th
...See more Hey, my wonderful Lovlies! I hope this message finds each of you in great spirits and flourishing in your endeavors. For those who may not know me, I’m Lexi, though many know me affectionately as Mae. Being a part of this dynamic and spirited teen community has truly been a rewarding experience for me. Today, I wanted to take a moment to share a significant personal update with all of you. I believe that being open and honest is essential for fostering a sense of trust and connection within our community. After much contemplation and soul-searching, I’ve made the decision to take a break from chatting and participating in our community room for the foreseeable future. Recently, I’ve found myself increasingly captivated by 7 Cups of Tea, a remarkable platform that provides emotional support and fosters connections among individuals seeking solace and understanding. While I initially turned to it as a healthy way to engage with others and share experiences, I’ve come to realize that my involvement has grown to occupy more time and attention than I intended. This realization hit me when I noticed that I was logging in during class hours and allowing my assignments to pile up, which ultimately affected my academic performance. It’s frustrating to admit, as I take my responsibilities seriously, and I’m not proud of allowing this distraction to overshadow my priorities. Taking this step back feels necessary for me to regain balance in my life and redirect my focus towards my studies and personal well-being. This situation has begun to seriously impact my academic performance. While my grades are an important part of this, it’s also about my overall mental well-being. Reflecting on last year, I remember how similar distractions left me feeling overwhelmed and stressed, and I really don’t want to relive that challenging experience. To take control of my situation, I’ve set a clear goal for myself: I will step back from the group rooms until I can raise my grades to at least all C's. This decision isn’t easy—leaving behind our chats and connections is tough—but I believe it's necessary for me to regain focus on my studies. I sincerely hope that everyone can appreciate the profound thought process behind this decision, which is fundamentally anchored in my unwavering commitment to prioritizing both my physical and emotional well-being. As I take a moment to reflect on my journey thus far, I recognize the essential role that nurturing my mental health plays alongside pursuing my academic ambitions. This realization has emerged gradually through various experiences and challenges I've faced, serving as an enlightening awakening to the intricate connection between maintaining a healthy mind and achieving my goals. Understanding that my overall well-being directly influences my capacity to learn, grow, and succeed has been a transformative lesson, one that I intend to honor as I move forward.y mindset and successful outcomes.   Taking this step is not just a temporary measure; it is an essential part of my long-term strategy for personal growth and resilience. It allows me the opportunity to step back, recharge, and cultivate a more balanced perspective on life. By doing so, I aim to arm myself with the tools and clarity needed to tackle the challenges that lie ahead with renewed vigor and confidence.   Your unwavering support throughout this process has made a significant difference in my life, and for that, I am truly grateful.pport means everything to me during this time. It reassures me that I’m part of a caring community, and I genuinely appreciate every message and gesture of encouragement. I look forward to the day when I can return, reinvigorated and eager to contribute again.  Thank you for your understanding and for taking the time to check in on one another. Please continue to care for yourselves, and I can’t wait to reconnect with each of you soon! ~Love, Lexi💖 Taglist : @KiminoSuizouwoTabetai @Midnightmystique @Sebastian0o0 @Shydrag0n @Darknesssystem @Orange64 @Comicisland @Darkerplaces @someoneidk498 @Kenzolena @Heartsrosesandpaws @HannahSupportBuddy @twerp @Macylou83 @Horzintalzombie87 @Sidezombie99 
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Rant......Major tw tho
Depression Support / by Lexiii99
Last post
 January 17th
...See more Rant........ Just a rant...... Why do i try?  I try sfm  so fuking hard but I'm still not good enough,  I thought I wasn't mean and attuidey all the time-   bur no all the progress done the drain Maybe I should go with the wind no one will notice  I hate myself, I thought I was improving though...I guess I'm not and never will I will always be a worthless ahh bich   Like fr I give tf up- 
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Self-love
General Support / by Lexiii99
Last post
 January 14th
...See more Hey loves! <3  Many of you who are on the teenie side may know me, but for those who don’t, my name is Mae! Today, I want to dive into a topic that holds a special place in my heart: self-love. I’ve been on a journey of practicing self-love since October, and let me tell you, it can be incredibly challenging. There are days when it feels downright impossible. Yet, in those moments when I manage to squeeze out a little boost of self-confidence—perhaps because I treated myself to a fresh makeup look or indulged in a relaxing skincare routine—I realize how impactful these small acts can be.  Self-love doesn’t have to be grand or complicated. Sometimes, it means taking the time to groom ourselves—like shaving for the guys—or simply stepping outside for some fresh air and exercise. Even something as basic as staying hydrated by drinking water counts as an act of self-love. It’s all about finding those little moments that uplift us and remind us to appreciate ourselves.
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Mae and bear
Pen Pals / by Lexiii99
Last post
 January 26th
...See more Dont look if not bear pleaseee <3........................ *takes some cookies w/ u*  Seriously....please don't.  ................... Your still here???  ............. This is private.  Hey! so this has been bugging since I saw you, I've been thinking about who you could be and I was wondering if you you were apeatrice I haven't seen them since I came back and miss them loads. So I was jw if it was you 
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S0ckz and The one and only maeeeeeeeeeee
Pen Pals / by Lexiii99
Last post
 January 29th
...See more @s0ckz  hey 
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Romey Rome and Maes corner
Pen Pals / by Lexiii99
Last post
 January 6th
...See more No peeking unless your  Romey Rome :  @DarkerPlaces 
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