Hello! I’m grateful to be here for you when you just need to be heard. Know you are never alone even when it feels the darkest. Reality is light and love and illusion is dark and seperate, all alone. I am a trained listener because I understand from my own experience how it feels to live with an illusion of not believing I am worthy and that I am wrong in a sea of people that somehow know they are ok. My lack of self worth has led me to actively persue anythig that I thought would make me all right . Alcohol and drugs gave me a sense of finally being able to feel at ease and to give me the false courage to behave like I thought I should in order to be the person I had determined was the kind I should be. Starving myself gave me a false hope that I would be beautiful enough to finally be loved and as life kept validating I still was unacceptable anxiety and depression spiraled me into a place of giving up and giving into the beleif that I had tried and my life got even worse. Alone in mental health mind of barely hanging onto a sense of control and nagging feelings of detachment drove me in persuiit of diagnosis and multiple pills prescribed by professionals that left me unclear if I felt better or if I was now worse due to side effects of the pills. Alone I persevered on this terrifying path of mental illness and addiction. Friends and family were unable to support me they in fact were repelled by me and either walked away or stared at me silently from a distance. Years later I am here and present in this moment and though my interaction with myself and the world around me isn’t like that of a wealthy covergirl with popularity of a rockstar or nationwide recognition of a famous athlete or Nobel peace prize winner, I am able to be present and compassionate due to my own lived experience to be here to listen and encourage and do my best to give you the support and genuine faith in which I pray will give you hope to make your own and to hold onto until it grows larger than the diagnosis and the struggles and the darkness. I’m available either immediately if I happen to be on line or by email and please know as soon as I see you have left a message I will reach out. Know that you are a cherished child of God and that you are here for a purpose that is in a master plan for good . Until we connect .