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Joshgw
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts8 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes1 Current upvotes1 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2022 Member sinceApril 18, 2022
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I've suffered from depression for at least 25 years. I've been hospitalized, tried over 20 meds, ECT, TMS, CBT, DBT. Ive had small success. Ive done group therapy. A therapist twice a week, a psychiatrist once/week. Ive done it all. I've been severely suicidal. My marriage is in trouble and we have a 12 year old son. I'm looking for a place to find help and support, share, connect with people and make friends. I don't know what else to do to get better.

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I'm new here and I just can't live like this anymore
Depression Support / by Joshgw
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 April 19th, 2022
...See more I was recently hospitalized, have been severely suicidal. I've tried over 20 meds, ECT, TMS, CBT, DBT. Little helps. I see my therapist twice a week, my psychiatrist once a week, group therapy, sites like this. I've done it all. My marriage is in trouble and we have a 12 year old son, so no matter how bad it gets suicide is pretty much out of the question. But that makes my depression even worse, I can't even use that as an escape. I feel totally alone because my wife has completely checked out, sick of being my caregiver and emotionally unavailable. I know other people feel the way I do, but it's not the same as getting support at home. I can't live like this, I can't commit suicide and getting better is elusive. What am I supposed to do? I'm struggling really badly. I need help, but I don't know what else I can do that I haven't done already. I know these things take time, but I can't stand it. Please help! I need more support, friends who understand. I'm just lonely and lost Thanks for listening Josh
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