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IwishmynamewasEllise
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PathStep 26 Compassion hearts26 Forum posts4 Forum upvotes7 Current upvotes7 Age GroupTeen Last activeMarch, 2024 Member sinceMarch 10, 2024
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I love art and books, those are practically my obsession and source of happiness

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"I don't want to live, but I dont want to die" Existential Crisis is killing me OMG, send help (/ω＼)
Self-Harm Recovery / by IwishmynamewasEllise
Last post
 April 15th
...See more AFTER months of going through my days feeling all gloomy and sad (without any major reasons) and multiple Mental Breakdowns, i finally accepted that "I am not okay". (I JUST ACCEPTED THIS YESTERDAY LOL, which is why i joined this community. I want to be better, feel better and grow better) i was indenial of my own vulnerability. Hehe T_T Im not okay... No matter how many times i watch TheWizardLiz for motivational words of wisdom that could boost my spirit up, yes it does have effects on me for a day or two but after that, the emptiness, low sense of purpose continues to eat me up. No matter how many times i try to do the thibgs that used to bring me joy, nothing. Nothing changes, the emptiness and loneliness is still there lingering on the back of my mind. I tend to question my worth these days, my purpose in life and the reason why i exist. I am conflicted of what i should do now that im getting closer to College life. I am confused of what i really want, What i love and need but all i know, i am living without a reason, not that i know it yet. I used to be so happy and motivated in my life but now, ever since i ented Senior Highschool, i no longer feel the fire in me. Its so cold and lonely and i want to know if people here feel/felt the same that i do rn. "A heavy weight is lighter together" soooo meuheheh tho i dont wnat people being conflicted with themselves tho!!! I just want to you know and relate with people HEHE
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