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Icouldbebetter8923
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts47 Forum posts15 Forum upvotes26 Current upvotes26 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2025 Member sinceFebruary 20, 2022
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Feeling lost
Religion & Spirituality / by Icouldbebetter8923
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 December 2nd, 2024
...See more I feel like I am stuck in life. Everyone is moving and doing amazing things in life and I am so lost. I want to trust god that he has a plan for me but I just don’t know. I don’t know if the life I am leading is mine. I am not the greatest Christian. I am not disciplined and pick and choose when being a Christian is convenient to me. how do I change? How do I stay disciplined and devoted to god? I feel like I have been waiting to hear god in my life. To hear him tell me what I need to do in life. What path to follow. I should trust god but why do I feel so lost and empty. I keep telling myself that god is the answer and that if I become a good Christian he will answer all my prayers. But I have been failing. I feel like I am disappointing god and that’s why I can’t see him in my life. I don’t blame him though. I haven’t been a good daughter to him so why would he show up? Why would he answer my prayers or give me peace? im sorry
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I am the problem
Self-Esteem / by Icouldbebetter8923
Last post
 December 2nd, 2024
...See more Hi i don’t know how to love myself. I grew up with an “almond mom” I love her to death but she is a kind of person who responds to fear with anger. Ik she loves me and wants the best for me but that seems to justify her treating me poorly. I was a chubby kid and for as long as I can remember I was conscious of my weight. My mom always told me that no one would love me when I look like this. To her she was motivating me to loose weight but that really *** me up. I am so insecure and truly believe I am unloveable in this body. At 21 I have never been in a relationship, never been in a situationship, never been kissed, held hands or even seriously talked to a guy. It’s not that I have never been approached or hit on by guys, that’s not the issue. The issue is my immediate reaction to a guy showing interest in me is pure disgust. My disgust is not directed at the guy but for the guy for finding someone like me attractive. I don’t know what to do because I want to feel loved too. Ik nothing is ever going to change unless I work on myself but how? Ik I should probably try therapy but I just wanna know if anyone has felt like this and how they moved on.
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How do I build up self confidence?
Self-Esteem / by Icouldbebetter8923
Last post
 June 9th, 2024
...See more I have always been aware of my weight since I was heavier than my sister. I love my mom but she is the reason I hate my body. As a kid I always thought that I was the fattest girl alive but looking back at old photos I don’t think I was fat at all. Ridiculously the other week my mom showed me a picture of myself from a few years ago and told my how skinny I looked and to “go back to that weight” a time in my life where she told me how much prettier I would be if i just lost weight. There has never been a time in my life where I was happy in my body. I want to be confident, don’t want to feel the ugliest when I am out with the girls. I am used to being the girl no one notices. I am 20 and have never dated anyone simply because I don’t think anyone can live me in this body. How do I learn to love myself? I keep telling myself that all I need to do is loose weight but I am so miserable with myself. I am afraid no one will ever find me attractive and that I am just meant to be alone.
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I realize I only come on this app at my lowest
Depression Support / by Icouldbebetter8923
Last post
 May 19th, 2023
...See more Every time I have come on here, I have been at my lowest. I have been relatively good for the past year. So much so I forgot this place existed. With the way I clung onto this platform last year even I am surprised to admit that. Today was rough but all I want to say is I really appreciate this place, and all the people on here that dedicate their time to helping someone else out at their lowest. I can’t count the number of nights I spent bawling my eyes out writing a post because this was the only way I could express my emotions out aloud. I used to hate myself for coming on here because it reminded me that the only reason I was here is because I didn’t have the guts to talk about my problems and reach out to the people around me. I couldn’t admit that I was going through a hard time and really needed help. But this platform saved me. If I never came on here I would have never reached out at all, and I would still be suffering in silence. This was the first step in me healing my wounds. Not only have I been seeing a therapist, any time I need help I can actually admit it out loud and am able go into the arms of friends and family without the overwhelming feeling of being a burden. I think that’s why I don’t come here as much anymore. Thank you to everyone on here for being amazing helping me through the darkest point of my life. Anytime I feel alone I am comforted by the fact that this place exists. Thank you for allowing me to express myself without feeling like a burden. I am a better person today because of it. 💕
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I am on the verge of a panic attack
Anxiety Support / by Icouldbebetter8923
Last post
 December 1st, 2022
...See more It has been a really long month for me. And I have somehow managed to get myself in the middle on a really messy situation. I Have spent all morning having really bad anxiety. I am an over thinker and I am overthinking myself into a panic attack. I keep counting things and blowing candles in my head to keep calm but the second I am calm, I am overthinking again. I hate this feeling in my chest, in my hands, how the tightness is crawling up my throat. I keep trying to distract myself but it’s hard when the problem is in my head. I need to get out of my head.
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