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Hinderedtalent
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PathStep 5 Compassion hearts10 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes3 Current upvotes3 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2022 Member sinceApril 6, 2022
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I Don't Want To Go On
Depression Support / by Hinderedtalent
Last post
 April 8th, 2022
...See more I Lost You. I lost it all the day you passed away. I Lost My Breath. I lost my will to feel like I was robbed at 28 of over 4 years of pure, blissful, unwavering, unequivocally healing, supportive, personal & professional growing, soul soothing, unquestionable trust, absolute and the future that was planned together. I lost the only thing that I was happy about and looking forward to on my birthday. I lost my mind at 7:32pm on my birthday when I called you and found out that you passed away the day before. I lost my desire to be. I lost my first relationship, my first love, my trust, my heart, my safe place, my plans for the future with him, my future husband, future family, the father to the future kids I never thought or desired having ever until he came along and said that he wanted some with me when we were ready, the special moments no one will ever know about, the tears you shared with me, the tears I shared with him, the last one of my supporters, my everyday routine that included you, the journey that we were on together growing and evolving, the path to finding out how to love and how to be loved in return, the journey we had building a life we both wanted and worked to achieve separately before meeting but now with the assistance of each other, my fucking hope for something, anything resembling a happy outlook for my future. I lost my next step. I lost my ability to think. I lost the ability to feel anything numbness or devastating despair. I lost my safe place. I lost my ability to know that I could relax and everything would be taken care of. I lost my ability to hope. I lost my desire to try to do anything at all. I lost a huge part of me that I truly didn't have to spare. I lost a huge part of me that I'll never be able to get back. I lost my hopes and dreams of a world with you. But most importantly, I lost you. I will carry on and get through this, because that's what we both pushed and helped each other to do. I love you eternally with every part of my being, my soul, and my heart. Until we meet on the other side. ♥ 03/04/2019-02/10/2022 All I Will Ever Want Ever Again Shouldn't Be This Complicated Only Thing I Will Try To Lie & Force Myself To Believe
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