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HealingMoonlight
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Hey there! I'm Samantha, currently pursuing my Master's degree in Art Therapy. Throughout my journey, I've found solace in art and spirituality during challenging times. From personal experience, I've battled through grief and loss, feelings of shame and isolation, and addiction.

If you're going through a tough time, here's a song I'd like to share with you: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Nri2626CfI 

Remember, you don't have to face things alone. Some people genuinely care about you. Reach out your hand, and we'll go through this together. 💙💙💙

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Navigating Through Eating Disorder: My Personal Journey
Eating Disorder Support / by HealingMoonlight
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March 28th
...See more This is probably my first time opening up about my eating disorder. I'm a 25-year-old student pursuing my degree in art therapy. Up until now, it's been close to 10 years of on-and-off abnormal eating behaviors and bingeing. I used to tell myself that I just lacked willpower or had bad habits, but the more I learn about the nuances and information related to psychology, the more I realize that it's so much more complicated than that. I've made some notes of my eating behaviors and potential causes. Initially, I intended to keep it just for self-reference, but I thought maybe I should share it here too in the community in case it could be of some help for other people too. (Though I want to highlight that I'm not a licensed professionalist, the notes below are just my personal experiences/diagnoses as a psychology student.) * Reasons: Gives me a sense of control: Growing up in an inconsistent childhood environment, I often felt powerless. Seeking control from various sources, my eating disorder became one of the means I utilized. * Gives me a sense of intimacy: My attachment style falls between avoidant and disorganized, making it hard for me to be vulnerable and connect genuinely. Food became one of the biggest sources of solace and intimacy for me. * Familiarity with shame: Growing up as an extreme introvert, I was familiar with feelings of shame. Part of me wants to experience it again and again, as it feels wrong not to and have a"normal life". * Unresolved grief: Losing my mom at a young age left me with unresolved grief. I often feel hesitant to stop eating because it gives me a sense of comfort and safety, like I'm not ready to let go. * Coping mechanism: I associate food with comfort due to instances in my childhood where I was given food to soothe my distress. * Fawning/low self-esteem: My low self-worth stems from various sources, including parental and peer rejection. I placed too much emphasis on looks for validation and belonging, leading to extreme dieting and a focus on appearance. Despite not having fully recovered from these behaviors, looking back, I realize I've come a long way in terms of mental health recovery. I still have faith and believe there's light at the end of the tunnel. Feel free to comment or reach out to share your thoughts. Let's grow, learn, and feel better together:)
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