Not accepting request ( Quitting 7 cups ! ) 

I went through everything whatever a human could experience. 

medical Diagnosis I have : MDD, schizophrenia, DPDR, General anxiety disorder, PTSD. 

In childhood I experienced physical abuse and domestic violence. 

My first love emotionally abuse me, she cheated me intentionally just to make me depressed. Followed by bullying, followed by betrayal of trusted friend ( found that he was sent by that girl to just to make me even more suicidal. Homie made fun out of my condition. I reached out to my classmate girl she was avoiding me. Later I found she too uses 7cups. I started to overthink and developed schizophrenia. 

Recently I found that my classmate girl with whom I reached out is professional psychological abuser. She used to fake depression and emotional distress to create sympathy. And I realised that what she was been doing with me is manipulation and emotional abuse. 

Because of MDD,  DPDR and emotional numbness I couldn't feel pain of getting emotional abused for the 3rd time in a row. I am grateful for the coping mechanisms my mind naturally does to protect me.