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Gh0sstt
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Single mom fears.
Parenting & Pregnancy / by Gh0sstt
Last post
 Thursday
...See more I am 22 years old and currently 19 weeks pregnant and I think I’m going through antenatal depression. At first I was excited about being a mother but now I have more doubts than ever. I feel very alone even if I have many people to want to support me. What I fear most is never finding love again or someone who would accept me and my child and take in as their own child. Has anyone on here found love again after having a baby? It would make me feel better to know other peoples experiences.
How do I get over you?
Depression Support / by Gh0sstt
Last post
 July 4th
...See more I know that I broke up with you first, so it’s selfish of me to want you back. I know it was for the best, but why I do feel like I’m rotting away without you. I’m sorry that I can’t stay away from you and let you move on, after all I’m the one who ended it. I’m sorry for confusing you, even though you will never see this message. how could I connect with someone else ever again? Feel what I felt with you. I know that we never met in person, and that you are 5,256 miles away, but I never felt more closer to you. i still have dreams about you. How could I forget our night calls, our conversations. I don’t play our games anymore, or listen to our playlist, I can’t. I still see you everywhere and I can only sigh and wonder. I hope that you have friends you can rely on, I hope that you are not alone and that you are healing. I hope that you miss me like I miss you.. I deleted our photos today, I hope you can forgive me. I can’t bare to look at them anymore, but I can’t help but feel guilty. The only memory I will now have of you is all in my head.. I forgot your voice. Although I have much more to say to you, I don’t have long left. I hope you know I am still your girl, and always will be. I love you forever, and please don’t forget me. may we meet in another lifetime.
I just want someone to tell me I’ll be okay.
Depression Support / by Gh0sstt
Last post
 August 6th
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Pregnant but don’t want to be.
Parenting & Pregnancy / by Gh0sstt
Last post
 June 14th
...See more TW: miscarriage mentioned . . . . I am 22 years old, I still live with my parents, I work full time, and I am pregnant. I never wanted kids or had the desire to become a mother. Recently I had found out at 2-3 weeks that im pregnant and I wasn’t sure how to feel about it, but my boyfriend made it seem like a good idea to keep it, so I was confident in telling my family. Everyone is excited and happy for me, and honestly so was I, at first. Now I am around 5-6 and starting to have second thoughts, I feel so guilty.. I started to think about all the things I still wanted to do but won’t be able to do anymore, like travel and not have responsibilities, be a kid for as long as I can, advance in my career, go to uni. I realised I’m not ready to give up that freedom, I feel very trapped on how to feel or how to cope with it. I am not intending to have an abortion, what’s done is done, but sometimes I secretly wish for a miscarriage and I feel like a disgusting human being. I don’t feel any connection or emotional attachment to the pregnancy, no maternal instinct and I’m afraid I won’t ever feel what I should feel for the baby.
Health Anxiety
Anxiety Support / by Gh0sstt
Last post
 June 21st, 2021
...See more I’ve been struggling with really bad health anxiety. Ive had it for years but I’ve only decided to act up on it now. I used to be very nervous at school which constantly made me feel anxious, even when I got back home, and I think it turned into something more, because of my anxiety I’ve been getting these symptoms that really freaked me out (I didn’t know these symptoms were a cause of my anxiety) that being said, I genuinely thought something was wrong with my health, I obsessively searched through the internet making sure whatever I’m feeling is normal, because I couldn’t get these intrusive thoughts out of my head, but it would only make me worse because then I’d start assuming I have some rare disease or something. I get slight headaches, tremors/twitches (especially in my legs, head and stomach) chronic pain and occasionally chest pain. Even though I know it’s anxiety it’s like my brain refuses to believe so. I remember I was feeling nauseous and very weak for a whole day, I couldn’t get out of bed at all or I felt like I was going to faint or throw up, I had to rock myself to sleep because it’s the only way I felt comforted while taking deep breaths. Luckily it was just for one day, the next days were better but yet It still wasn’t completely over. I’ve called a doctor and they suggested I see a therapist before deciding to take any medication, so that’s what I did, but due to the pandemic it might take a while by the looks of it. I would always feel better knowing or talking to someone who’s going through the exact same thing as me because it makes me feel less alone. Maybe if anyone has some advice or techniques to cope with it would be nice.
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