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Eiccacries
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PathStep 71 Compassion hearts15 Forum posts17 Forum upvotes19 Current upvotes19 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2021 Member sinceMarch 19, 2020
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Trauma Support / by Eiccacries
Last post
 December 10th, 2021
...See more Things aren't going well,had a big meltdown yesterday and now I don't really feel anything. Things with my bf aren't going well,He keeps throwing at myself the fact that i dont have sex and i keep defending myself because I have trauma and I'm a virgin and shit is hard. He started smoking weed a lot again when he knows it's a trigger for me and then gets mad at me if i leave for a while while he's high. Maybe moving in with home as a really big mistake since i lost my best friend because of it too. I don't know I'm just so tired right now my mind isn't working and my body feels like it weighs a ton. I can't think straight.
Trying to communicate
Relationship Stress / by Eiccacries
Last post
 December 16th, 2021
...See more Things aren't okay with my bf rn,it's been three days and we just fight over everything. It all started because I'm a virgin and i have PTSD and having sex scares the shit out of me. He's getting really frustrated and while I understand it's just not fair to blame for something I'm working on but can't really control. I am seeking for some tips on how to fix this
Terrified of intimacy and a virgin
Relationship Stress / by Eiccacries
Last post
 December 28th, 2021
...See more I have sexual trauma and i am a virgin. I've been dating my boyfriend for 3 months now and we're having a lot of problems because I don't do the sexual stuff. He's aware of what i went through but he gets so frustrated. sent him a text today while he was sleeping upstairs and i ended up watching his google history( what i know is very wrong) and there was a lot of "why my partner doesn't want to have sex with me" Posts and also a couple of porn videos,what is normal since he's not getting any sex. I don't think i make him happy anymore and I'm really sad about it. I upfronted asked him that but he keeps saying that i make him happy. I dont know what to do,i want to have sex with him but I'm so freaking scared i freeze and i just can't do it,I feel like the worst partner ever and i dont know how to solve it. I can't really afford therapy right now and i don't know.
I suffer from sex aversion and worry it may end my relationship
Relationship Stress / by Eiccacries
Last post
 December 4th, 2021
...See more TW : SA i was sexually molested when i was 13,I'm still a virgin now (I'm 21) and have been with my boyfriend for 3 months. He obviously wants to have sex and even when he told me he would be patient ( I told him about it) He's starting to lose patience and i get it,i understand,he's a guy and he's a sexual guy. I'm trying to improve bit by bit i can even touch him sometimes now but it's not enough and I'm worried he will leave me for it. Everytime we fight it's bout the same problem over and over,he thinks I'm not trying hard enough and i feel like a selfish monster for it. I swear i try and hell i want to have sex too,he's attractive and he turns me on but Everytime he sets things going i just freeze and run from it. i know it makes him feel bad but i don't know what to do or what steps to take to start healing. I don't want this to be the end of my relationship,i love him to bits.
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