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EchoOfDreams
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PathStep 8 Compassion hearts19 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes7 Current upvotes7 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2024 Member sinceAugust 11, 2024
Bio

Hey there, I’m on a journey of self-discovery and healing, working through deep-rooted feelings of sadness, loss, and a sense of inadequacy. My goal is to find peace within myself, rebuild my confidence, and let go of past dreams that have weighed me down.

For fun, I’m into boxing and biking, which help me stay grounded and release some of the tension I carry. I’ve also been exploring healthier eating habits, trying to take better care of my body as I work on my mind.

When it comes to books, I’m drawn to works that explore spiritual growth and the deeper meaning of life. Some of my favorites include The Teachings of Don Juan by Carlos Castaneda, The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz, The Tibetan Book of the Dead, The Tao Te Ching by Lao Tzu, and various texts on medicinal herbs. These books resonate with my interest in spirituality and holistic healing.

Right now, I’m trying to overcome the feeling that I’ll never measure up or achieve the love I’ve always longed for. It’s a tough road, but I’m here, hoping to connect with others who understand what it’s like to feel this way. My wish is to reach a place where I can find fulfillment and peace, even if it looks different from what I once imagined.

Recent forum posts
Struggling with Feeling Like a Loser After Years of Redefining Success
Self-Esteem / by EchoOfDreams
Last post
September 10th
...See more I have changed my views of success a lot of times. I still feel left out no matter what. I just don't want to feel like a loser, and redefining success now feels like giving up. I feel like my bullies were right. I feel like my ex was right. The men she cheated on me with were better than me. I lost. That's it. I give up on finding beauty, a home, and winning
Discovering the Real Source of My Struggles
Self-Esteem / by EchoOfDreams
Last post
August 27th
...See more As I continue to express and explore my feelings, I’m starting to realize that my struggles aren’t as superficial as they initially seemed. I used to think that my pain stemmed from never getting the chance to date someone like a supermodel or a well-known weather lady, but I’m discovering that there’s something much deeper going on. Growing up, I was constantly uprooted from my communities due to my narcissistic father. We moved around so much that I never had the chance to truly belong or be accepted anywhere. This lack of stability meant that I couldn’t form lasting bonds or feel a sense of community, and I think that’s where my real issues lie. I’ve been bullied and rejected by beautiful women, and for a long time, I believed that dating someone like them would be the solution to all my problems. But as I dig deeper, I realize it’s not really about being with a "bombshell" at all. What I truly crave is acceptance, belonging, and praise from a community—a sense of being valued for who I am, something I’ve never truly experienced. By expressing these feelings, I’m getting closer to identifying the underlying problems in my psyche. It’s not about chasing after a certain type of woman, but about healing the wounds left by years of feeling like I don’t belong. I’m learning to focus on building genuine connections and finding a place where I can finally feel accepted.
Letting Go of an Unattainable Dream: Seeking New Motivation After Years of Struggle
Depression Support / by EchoOfDreams
Last post
August 25th
...See more Today, I faced a harsh reality that has been years in the making—I’ve had to let go of the dream of dating a super beautiful woman, a dream that I’ve held onto since my younger years. It’s a struggle that might seem laughable or trivial to others, and I’m fully aware that in many circles, it could even be dismissed as shallow. But for me, this dream was tied to years of bullying, rejection, and feeling like I never had any social status anywhere I’ve been. I’m not trying to advocate for any harmful beliefs or policies, but I want to share how deeply this has affected me. My life has been marked by misguidance, a lack of support, and years spent numbing the pain with drugs and alcohol. Now, I’m older, and after working hard in boxing and searching for a better-paying job, I’ve realized that the barriers between me and the kind of woman I desire are impenetrable. I’ve accepted that this dream is impossible and that I need to find new motivation to continue my hard work. I have to search for someone who is more aligned with where I am in life, even if that means letting go of what I once wanted so deeply. This isn’t about blaming anyone—it’s about acknowledging my reality and figuring out how to move forward from here.