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Dreamxcatcher
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You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with
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Help with my social paranoia
Anxiety Support / by Dreamxcatcher
Last post
 August 18th, 2017
...See more I haven't always been like this. It all started when I entered high school. I sencerily feel like most people don't fancy me. I see it from their reactions towards me.I wouldnt have problem if they do, if I knew the reason exactly why. I wouldn't have problem if I knew that I'm a piece of human trash, and arrogant selfish bastard, myself. Then everything would be clear to me. But I'm not. I dont do or tell bad things to people, I'm not arrogant, I'm actually very shy, artistic, used to cry a lot when I was younger but grow out of it, quiet (and scared), but very kind. People that know me would say the same. However ever since I started high school, people have turned their back to me (even some people I knew). They started rumors, trash talk, and all that stuff, and I seriously thought I was dreaming. I couldn't believe, I never experienced such treatment from anyone before. I felt like I didnt deserve it at all. I isolated myself completely, dont upload my picture, my talents, because I'm scared of people's judgement. I even fear that someone will talk shit about me to new people I didnt even meet. I turned to my good friend from high school and asked her to sencerily tell me if I am a hateable person. And she told me that I'm not, which I think too. But all this just made me question myself a lot, I am not at peace with myself, I am under tension when I think about my class, I feel something is wrong with me but I'm too blind to see, my self-esteem is lower than ever. The only thing that keeps me from completely hating myself is when I look at my younger self and how she was and how she behaved at the time. It rassures me that I'm not that bad. I really need help... so if someone has any suggestions on what to do, what's wrong, assumptions, it would be of big help really.
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What makes someone a good friend?
Relationship Stress / by Dreamxcatcher
Last post
 June 27th, 2016
...See more What are the most important personality traits a good friend should have to even be called ''good''?
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