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CountryRoadsLoner
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Tired of the pain
Journals & Diaries / by CountryRoadsLoner
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 October 17th, 2021
...See more I'm tired of the pain. I'm tired of always allowing others make me so angry that I can't breathe. I hate when people lie to the world and take advantage of others. I hate it when people take advantage of me because I'm so good at the things I do. I'm angry that the people at my church are always calling me and wanting my opinion, yet they never listen. They want me to fix messes that I cannot fix. I don't even want to be involved to be honest. I only went back because my family asked me to go with them. There was too much spiritual misconduct and I am still hurt from things that happened there over 20 years ago. I am depressed and feel so broken. I feel so alone. I am alone because I push everyone away. I want interaction, yet I don't want to put forth the effort to interact. I don't like interacting, but I don't like being alone. I feel torn to pieces by my own misguided feelings. I feel like I need to run away, but where would I run? I can never outrun myself. Sadly, I'm just a misfit. I belong no where and nobody wants me around except for when they want something from me.
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