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Confusedpotato1
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LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Confusedpotato1
Last post
 May 20th, 2022
...See more So I kinda came out as ftm to my parents a little while ago but they don’t really care. My dad said he supports me but he doesn’t believe in transitioning and I know he sees me as his little girl. I had been out as non binary for a bit so he will use they/them for me but I really know I’m a boy. I always have known. Since I was little and sticking stuffed animals in my pants to pretend I had a d*ck. Or telling my friend I wanted top surgery on the floor of her room at 10 years old when my aunt got it (Shes still a girl, just with a flat chest) before I even knew what it really meant. And I know I’m only 13 and I have so much time to discover myself, but I know this feels right. And I can’t take it anymore. I hit puberty near the end of being 11 and I have hated myself so much. I can’t stand my chest and it doesn’t help that I have a big chest. I play lots of sports and being on the girls team is just a reminder of how much I hate myself. But if I did play on the boys team (which I’m not allowed to) I would just be less then them even though I work so so hard just to try to build a tiny bit of muscle and I just hate it so much. Seeing my brother and my friends and all the guys in my life be perfect boys just makes me wanna cry. (Just a note; it’s ok if you don’t read this or respond. I’m ok. I don’t want it to seem like I have it super bad because I know a lot of people have it much worse than me and I am very grateful that my parents still love me and didn’t kick me out and stuff like that)
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LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Confusedpotato1
Last post
 March 13th, 2022
...See more I hate my self so much. I hate everything abt myself. I’ll never be a real boy and it’s so stupid. I can never do anything I want cause of my stupid gender and im never gonna be good enough. And I’m watching all these videos and stuff of people getting top surgery and starting t and it just feels so far away cause my whole family just thinks I’m nb which I guess is closer but they still only know me as my birth name and misgender me all the time and when they do call me they I know it’s better then being a girl, but it still feels wrong. I can’t do anything cause of my stupid chest and face and thighs (ugh I HATE my thighs) and I can’t get a binder. I’m going on spring break soon and I hate swimming because of stupid dysphoria. And I just want to curl up and cry and sink into the floor and disappear but I can’t even do that cause of my stupid f**ked up self that won’t even cry and I hate it so much. And I’ve been trying so hard recently to be positive and not hurt myself and just be ‘ok’ but the truth is I’m not. I hate me and I’m just the worst. (pls don’t worry abt me cause I’m fine)
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