I suffer from DID, Hallucinations, Misophonia

“Mental disorders are not your fault, "

If I can still breathe I am fine

**System account**

Emily

She/Her

17 years

You can call me Emily or Em or anything you like :)

Gaia

Animal lover 🐾

caretaker

Music lover

Alexander

Father figure 🫂

advice giver 

Lily

the kid 🍬🍫

Zero

The aggressive one 🦆

Taking a family picture doesn't make us a family dear mom and dad 

🎵Picture, picture, smile for the picture

Pose with your brother, won't you be a good sister?

Everyone thinks that we're perfect

Please don't let them look through the curtains🎵

Triggers: Family, Loud noises, Abandonment, seeing healthy father-daughter relationships

Vent:

"Father" thank you for breaking my heart before any boy did thank you for making me cry every night thank you for never making me feel good enough thank you for always calling me weak thank you for always putting me down and thank you for never standing up for me thank you for hitting me and preferring my sister.

"Mother" Thank you for always preferring the people who hurt me thank you for always judging me thank you for always neglecting me and taking care of my sister thank you for never believing me thank you for emotionally scarring me for life thank you for telling I am worthless everyday and thank you for letting me know I am a waste thank you for saying my DID is just me overthinking thank you for letting me know I am very ugly so my sister feels happy

"Sister" Thank you for making fun of my trauma thank you for being friends with the people who hated and bullied me Thank you for constantly beating me thank you always making our "parents" punish me for something I didn't do thank you for ruining my life thank you for always bullying me.

"friends" thank you for letting me know that my family is perfect and I might be overreacting thank you for also letting me know that having mental disorders this age is fake and attention seeking thank you for always going out with my bullies and talk behind my back.

"teachers" thank you for letting me know I am never good enough thank you for always punishing me even when I did nothing thank you for embarrassing me in front of the whole class yelling at me that I was stupid when I asked a doubt.

"Grandma" Thank you for letting me know I am a failure since I did not get 80% in exams and thank you for telling me ruined my life because I bought pets since I like it

But guess what fuckers I survived I somehow always do

felt so much before now I feel nothing 

You ruined me I plan to return the favor to all of you...