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Celestialrose33
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PathStep 32 Compassion hearts32 Forum posts195 Forum upvotes241 Current upvotes241 Age GroupAdult Last activeAugust, 2021 Member sinceJune 19, 2019
Bio
New to this and rather nervous. Was diagnosed with depression about 18 months ago but myself and my Dr are still trying to work out if it's depression in its own right or as a symptom of my b12 deficiency and thyroid disorder. I need to work on self esteem and fighting my own negativity but looking to generally chat with people who won't judge or turn my problems round to be about them. Love doing cross stitches and colouring to relax. Watching films and general chilling out.
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Hard day
35 & Over Community / by Celestialrose33
Last post
 May 29th, 2021
...See more I've rejoined 7 cups because I can see the signs of me getting to that low point again. I woke up tired today, as seems to be the norm at the moment. Tiredness makes me emotional and started my work day feeling like I was right on the edge. Luckily I have brilliant colleagues and that feeling disipated after a while. But I get home. Have been home 10 mins and I'm back down, feeling like I'm about to break. I hate this feeling. Sad. Tired. Lonely. Feeling like there's a huge weight pushing me down
Help with weight
Healthy Living / by Celestialrose33
Last post
 September 12th, 2020
...See more I need help. I have always been a big girl. I don't ever remember me being skinny. I've always just got on with it you know? I've tried many diets over the years. Managed to loose a few pounds here and there but there was always some excuse to not carry on. I was sat on my bed today and I looked down at my knees/legs and thought to myself "you are disgusting, you need to loose weight". I know I need to for health too, it's not just my head. But I need help. I've realised that although I know I need to do this, there's always a part of me fighting it. How can I get over this? What mental help can I get to help me physically. I'm not sure if any of this makes sense with how I've written it, but I think I've just broken looking at myself.
Flashback causing questions - clarity needed
Trauma Support / by Celestialrose33
Last post
 April 13th, 2020
...See more I don't know what to do or where to start. I don't know if this is rearing it's head because lock down means more time to think or because it's coming up to the anniversary. About 3 years ago I had a FWB relationhip with who I thought was a good guy. The last time we met was different. I wasn't 100% in the mood. I wanted to hang out rather than anything else but that changed. We were making out and it quickly built to sex (anal because for some reason I didn't want vaginal). I was into it and enjoying it, but a couple of times he tried putting it in my vagina and every time I said no he'd take it back out again. He did it again a bit more forceful but because I was in the zone and he was doing other stuff, I started making a noise in my throat "hmm hmm" sort of thing indicating no. At least I thought I was. Long story short he didn't pull out and he released himself into me. When he was done, he dressed himself, said sorry and walked out. It left me feeling dirty. I questioned this for a while after and have been doing it alot again recently: asking myself if it was rape (although not in the strictest sense), did I deserve it, did I do enough to try and stop it? I can't talk to anyone and definitely need clarity on it
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