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Caitlyn1993
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Grief & Loss / by Caitlyn1993
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March 14th
...See more Hi everyone. So I'm not sure why. But I'm pretty sure that my post I had on here about a few days ago, was deleted. Why?
I still don't know how to feel.
Grief & Loss / by Caitlyn1993
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March 16th
...See more It's been a while since I've been on here. I just am still at a loss for words I guess. I still haven't let go of my mom (2018), uncle (2020), and now my aunt (2023). Cancer really sucks and heart failure. Right now I really need all them back. I graduate college this up coming May and they won't be there to see me walk. I'm going through things with my boyfriend too and I'm scared to lose the cat we just got. The cat has been making sure I've been ok by following me everywhere, sleeping with me when I'm at the house, and more. I don't know how to handle things right now. I know it's been year with my mom and my uncle, but I just...I just...don't know how to feel. I just want to rewind time and either cure cancer or show them what is going to happen.
Anxiety waiting
Anxiety Support / by Caitlyn1993
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June 5th, 2023
...See more This is a hope type share. My boyfriend and I came across this cat yesterday and noticed it was hurt. The police said to bring it to the humane society and we did. We can't stop thinking about it. He talked to his parents and they said we can have it. So if this kitty lives, we will look into adopting it. I'm nervous, they said it was in rough shape. This would be the first animal I have had since giving up my dog(son) in 2018. Please can everyone thinks something good. I'm calling today to get an update. We named it Bob for a boy and Bobbi for a girl.
No one reaches out
Anxiety Support / by Caitlyn1993
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April 12th, 2023
...See more I think I may be done posting on this app. I have reached out for conversations on here and have hardly even gotten any responses. I'm not sure what is going on. But I thought this app was to help people. I don't see myself getting that much help now.
Overload
Anxiety Support / by Caitlyn1993
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April 17th, 2023
...See more I need help. My friends got a dog and registered her as an emotional support dog (which is great for my friend). But they think they can take her anywhere and any place. I tried talking to them about it because you can't do many things with an emotional support dog than an actual service dog. Now, I want a dog again so badly and I can't have it at the moment. So, when they got her, they kind only talked about the dog and this and that. Apparently I'm wrong with my facts about service animals. I have hardly heard from my friends in few weeks since getting the dog and now they want my help to fix the pool area up because I swim there. I don't mind doing that. But she wants to bring the dog and hold the dog. I told her tie her up or something because we need help. It will cause more chaos if she literally holds the dog. My anxiety is up and I'm in school and in a course right now having to write 15-20 page essay. I'm trying not to cry and not to speak my mind because apparently things I say are wrong. Am I wrong about the service animal part? What is wrong with me that no one seems to think I may be right about something for once? My anxiety and depression have gotten to me because I want a dog since having to give mine up when I was homeless in 2018.
Scared
Anxiety Support / by Caitlyn1993
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March 29th, 2023
...See more I start my senior year of college on Monday and I'm scared. I didn't make it this far in high school. I ended up getting my GED. I feel like I can do it, but a part of me is telling me this is a lot. But I will be done in October and walk next year. I don't want to psych myself out. I'm buying a bike this week and I'm hoping I can calm myself once in a while with bike and listen to music. I will exercise at the same time. But, I'm nervous. I'm going into law enforcement and I'm also hoping to go back to get a degree to finish my firefighter certifications. I'm hoping this feeling doesn't say to people 'oh look how weak she is, she can't do anything in her life'.
So overwhelmed
Anxiety Support / by Caitlyn1993
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March 25th, 2023
...See more I...I...I don't know what to do. I'm working on a final for school and I'm just not sure how to write it. I can't stop overthinking about it, about my weight, about life, etc. Then my mind is all over the place because I feel my boyfriend won't make sacrifices because his boss is a jerk. His boss won't hire anyone else, so the boyfriend is the only employee and he works him basically 7 days a week, sunrise to just about sunset. His boss isn't even on the job to help him. I've asked the boyfriend to talk to him about getting a schedule so he can help me at the gym and other things. Well, his boss wants him to take care of work first and basiyhe gets out when things are done. Which can be 5 to 7 at night and now the boyfriend says because of his job, he may not want to do the gym. I have made so many sacrifices for people my whole life, I don't understand why no one will for me. What's so wrong with me? What have I done wrong? So, my mind is all over the place. Then people keep asking why I'm in my first job due to having to drive an hour to and from work and then driving a kid around. It's like I can't do something I like. I can't focus on school or losing weight because everyone and everything is getting to me. I can't leave to go somewhere because bills and the way the world is. I have tried to speak my mind and I really feel like I'm not heard or anything. I just...I just can't handle it anymore. I just want to be in a different life and forget about things. I'm done school in October and I'm terrified I'm not going to make it because everything and everyone in my life. I work 2 jobs, school full time, and help on a team through the fire department. I'm also working on my mental health and weight. I'm trying to make everyone and myself happy, but I seriously feel I'm failing. I can't handle this. I don't know what to do or where to go. 😭😭😭😭😭😭
Birthday I don't know
Anxiety Support / by Caitlyn1993
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February 25th, 2023
...See more Well it's my birthday and I woke up to freezing weather from a storm. Which I'm not really complaining about because I was born in the winter and this is when all the storms love to come. I'm just tired. Yes I had to work, but that's work. But now I gotta run around to grab people and bring them places before I even get to go to a place for my birthday. Am I wrong to be selfish today especially after I've been through things and never put myself first? Or should I just cancel tonight plans and watch movies at home for my birthday? 😔
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