I am a middle ager with ADHD, and anxiety.. On a bad day Im just hanging on, fearful for "no reason." On a better day, I can relax enough to enjoy time with my cats, my son and granddaughter, cooking and just simple things. Im a caregiver for my two elderly parents. My father is blind with dementia and my mother is in a wheelchair. I am on my own in caring for them. Im working on my own life while trying to not give in to overwhelm and burnout. Im usually a very positive person yet I do have my dark days for sure. In the evenings I have to watch shows to unplug. I watch mostly detective shows and supernatural and sci fi. 

Im on meds and supplements for my anxiety. I drink more than Id like but I am treating the anxiety first. Its why I drink, fears so bad I feel I could explode. Many people who do not have severe chronic anxiety want to tell me how to live and though Im open to advice, I also know myself pretty well. I know I will get through this. I never give up, yet Im learning to let go of things that weigh me down. If I did not drink Id be dead. I AM getting stronger and handling fear better, drinking less but not giving it up yet.