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C1246559
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losing weight with BED
Eating Disorder Support / by C1246559
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 August 23rd, 2016
...See more I've been really struggling with my self-esteem and body image as of late. I've always had poor body image and self-esteem, but due to some recent events, my stress and anxiety and depression has skyrocketed, and so have the negative thoughts about myself and my body. I lost over 100 pounds 3 years ago, and have steadily gained back about 50. For the past couple of months, I've been busting my ass and lost 13 and counting of the 50 I gained. But it's been so incredibly hard for me. I have binge eating disorder and every day food is my enemy. And I find myself getting down on myself more and more. Through my weight loss, I have stretch marks and loose skin. It gets very disheartening that no matter how hard I work or how dedicated I am, those things will never go away. They will be a constant reminder of who I used to be. And it doesn't help that my one and only serious relationship ended because of my weight gain, and any other guy I've pursued has disappeared. If anyone reading this has been through this or has any advice or encouragement or kind words, they would be most welcome.
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Relationship Stress / by C1246559
Last post
 July 2nd, 2015
...See more My ex-boyfriend of 2 1/2 years and I broke up 4 months ago. Through these past few months, I've realized that he was a horrible person and the worst guy I could have picked for my first serious relationship. I also kept secrets of his for over a year that were disgusting and illegal, and now I've decided to report him to the police. Part of me feels good for finally coming forward with this information because the burden of guilt was eating away at me. But another part of me feels terrible. My actions could potentially ruin his life. And even after all the things he did to hurt me throughout our relationship, I find myself still caring for him and even loving him. And that makes me disgusted with myself. He's also completely moved on with a new girlfriend, a great job, his own place, and what appears to be a great life. It's as if I never existed. I just can't seem to fully move on because he doesn't act as though he's sorry for how much he's hurt me. He never once apologized for anything he ever did to me (or didn't do). I don't know how to truly move on from investing so much of my heart and my efforts into a person who left me in the dirt without a second thought. And thoughts or strategies or kind words are welcome.
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