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BumblebeeHeart
3,535 M Seeking Light 2
PathStep 105 Compassion hearts260 Forum posts61 Forum upvotes93 Current upvotes93 Age GroupAdult Last activeApril, 2022 Member sinceApril 5, 2020
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I like to make art and feel peaceful. I love animals and spending time with them is awesome.
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Nail Biting, Teeth Clenching, Skin Biting, Cheek Biting! Oh my!
OCD & Related Behaviors / by BumblebeeHeart
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May 7th, 2021
...See more Hi All I am poking a little fun at myself with the thread title. I'm not mocking BRFB's. As my thread title suggests, I have issues with a few BRFB's (in descending order): Nail biting, teeth clenching, skin biting, cheek biting, lip biting, scab picking. I have had these issues my whole life as a result of developing poor stress managment and coping techniques as a child. Yikes, I just realized I was chewing on my cheek as I was typing! Mindfulness is a big part of my NEW stress coping and managment techniques, as I often do these behaviors without concsious choice. When I notice my BRFB's I try to pay attention that my body is trying to tell me: I'm preoccupied with stressful thoughts, even if they are mostly subconscious. I have often been so embarassed and ashamed by my fingers, especially my nails. I have, but do so less now, changed my hand movements in public to minimize them in sight. Ugh, I just bite them down to nubs! I often chew/bite the skin around my nails as well. I've been able to stop for periods of time, especially during certain circumstances like camping. It is definetly my go-to BRFB. I'm new to recognizing these behaviors and associating them with my metal health. This is a wonderful place to find for support! Anyone else? Anyone want to share anything? Bee
Beginning trauma exposure therapy - 22 years later
Trauma Support / by BumblebeeHeart
Last post
February 10th, 2021
...See more Hi 7 Cuppers :), I’m Bee. I joined 7 cups for anxiety support awhile ago, but I’m new to the Trauma Support community because I wasn't ready to be here. But that has changed! I’ve had times of severe anxiety and depression my entire life, and then survived trauma 22 years ago. I was diagnosed with PTSD at that time, but did not receive appropriate treatment. I was lucky to have wonderful therapists since then, but was not honest about my trauma. Now, much, much later, I’m going through some health issues. I really started physically struggling after an Epstein Barr Virus (Mononucleosis) infection almost 3 yrs ago. Four months ago I decided to take a medical leave, invest in my health and to deal with my trauma for the first time. I knew seeking help for my physical symptoms but keeping my trauma private, would keep me trapped. So I was (finally) honest with my Drs about my struggles, got some clarifying physical diagnoses, am on new medication, and am in Trauma specific treatment. In my therapy we are about to begin Exposure therapy... holy crap. I am terrified! 22 years later, here I go! I am planning on returning to work soon, part-time at first. I am anxious about participating in this very challenging exposure therapy when I’m already feeling physically depleted, and then on top of it, go to work ( argh social anxiety! covid anxiety!) and be expected to perform, problem solve, be a leader? My next appointment with my therapist is in 2 days...She won’t pressure me if I’m not ready, but I don’t want to live with such fear, shame and guilt anymore. I deserve better. I lived 22 years carrying weight I’m ready to put down.
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