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BugBabyBlob
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts27 Forum posts5 Forum upvotes11 Current upvotes11 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2024 Member sinceDecember 26, 2022
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Humming, From the Earth?
Around the World / by BugBabyBlob
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 Sunday
...See more Anyone else hearing a low humming from the ground or is it just me?
Schizophrenia
Bipolar, Schizophrenia & Psychosis Support / by BugBabyBlob
Last post
 Sunday
...See more Schizophrenia runs DEEP in my family and it usually starts in the early thirties for my ancestors, but for me it started in my early teenage years. This is the most scared I’ve been in a long time. I can’t trust anyone or anything anymore because I’m in doubt that it’s even real. These things in my head are out to get me and I hear them outside my room all night like really big rats like the one from “Choose Or Die” - the movie ( it’s a really good horror movie btw) I can feel them touch my and nail nails into my skin. Nobody I’ve told believes me because of my age and it’s getting worse, I just need something to help me.
Internet Gore Videos
Addiction Support / by BugBabyBlob
Last post
 2 days ago
...See more I know this may be the oddest thing you’ve read on this page TW: mention of death when I was about 9 or 10 I was introduced to Reddit and was given unrestricted access to the internet. As a child I would explore Reddit top to bottom finding cool stuff and bad stuff, which was a the Mexican cartels gore videos. A child would not be able to comprehend what death may be at least me at my young age did not know what was happening. I watched them over and over, not understanding the pain of the people behind the screen. Over time it became an addiction, even after figuring out what horrible things were happening in the videos I watched nonetheless. The videos would make me sick, and almost always cry, I ended up being diagnosed with PTSD after having an episode after seeing my mother with a toy gun thinking it was real and that she would have shot me/an animal/ or herself with it and imagining the mortifying and horrific scene of what our bodies would have looked like afterwards. Watching those videos had given me a disorder, though that didn’t stop me from watching more videos. God I couldn’t stand myself anymore knowing what I was watching and how much it affected my life and how I will now see life. A few months back from present day I vowed to no longer visit a gore site or watch gore and I have abide by that vow ever since I am now 3 months clean of gore at Thirteen, I am happier than I have ever been yet I still have episodes in certain situations I am still healthier than I had ever been in the last 4 years. I am sorry if this isn’t valid nor acceptable as an addiction. I apologize for how cruel this may be.
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