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BeautifulCreation999
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PathStep 37 Compassion hearts61 Forum posts12 Forum upvotes34 Current upvotes34 Age GroupAdult Last activeDecember, 2022 Member sinceDecember 3, 2022
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Positivity & Gratitude / by BeautifulCreation999
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December 14th, 2022
...See more I am new here and I am trying to join communities and groups and find listeners and do challenges and find useful information that will help me to become a better and happier me. I know I deserve to feel good and be happy and have a life that isn’t pointless or stressful to a point of complete isolation. Focusing on being positive and understanding at the same time and providing positive feedback and encouragement along the way and words of wisdom and encouragement are welcome. Thanks for the chance at a better beginning to a bad ending
Poems and Sketching
Hobby Zone / by BeautifulCreation999
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December 9th, 2022
...See more I have been writing poems and sketching for some time now, I realized one day when I couldn't get a grip on my feelings and emotions that it helped me for the time being. It is not a long-term fix, but it sure does help. Some people might say they don't have talent to write or draw or sing or whatever else there is, however, you don't have to have talent to do something you enjoy that you can use to cope in life. So, if you get the chance to do something that will help you find yourself for even a moment, please don't hesitate just to do it and no matter the talent you will get the benefit of it and that's all that matters.
Why
Self-Harm Recovery / by BeautifulCreation999
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December 9th, 2022
...See more I don’t really understand why I can’t seem to get a grip on life and stop hurting myself because it takes all the other pain away I feel daily. How is it that life can become so bad you have to feel pain to get rid of pain. Life is not fair or easy to figure out and nothing seems to make sense anymore I’m out of things to try and reasons to stop! New here need some advice thanks
Looking for a long term listener
General Support / by BeautifulCreation999
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December 28th, 2022
...See more Someone who is serious about listening and helping me with my concerns and needs. I am a 34 year old female with so many different problems such as anxiety depression ptsd bipolar insomnia self esteem issues anger addiction relationship issues and adhd. I am a Roller Coaster of emotions and I don’t feel like I have a purpose here in this life. I am interested in finding someone who can help me to see life in a different vision, hear words in a new perspective and feel something different and inspire me to challenge myself and my fears. Thank you
My Demons
Alcohol & Drug Addiction Support / by BeautifulCreation999
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December 5th, 2022
...See more I have been held hostage for so long that I honestly have no idea how to break free! Drugs have been apart of me since age 12 and they have comforted me so I could sleep, they have calmed me down so I could think straight, they have been there to lift me up when I was at my lowest and they also have never let me down in making my pain suffering empty feelings stress anger trauma and anxiety disappear for the time I needed them to. Hence is why I became addicted to any drug I could get! Unfortunately I didn’t even notice that I was enabling the demons to take hold of my soul and not let go. After 22 years of hopelessness, and living everyday as a survivor of things I became to see that nothing is getting better I am still held hostage by my demons even while working recovery I couldn’t find happiness or pleasure in things that made recovery worth while which in return would cause more stress and anger, like what is the point if there is no point and that is where I am at in life! I suffer from many issues from mental physical and emotional abuse my whole life which is the reason I started using drugs so I could mask the pain and feel free from my thoughts and doubt and self esteem issues that have always caused me to run away from friends family and relationships which makes for a very lonely life and also makes things harder knowing I am not normal or good enough for anyone to want to stay in my life no matter my issues, which caused me to sink all my sorrows and heartaches in my demons because they were always there when nobody else was. I am giving this a shot because nothing else seems to work, and I am truly tired of being well me! I want to be freed from my demons and free from all my underlying issues so I can finally see my purpose and feel a sense of happiness and self worthiness. Life now as I speak for me is emotionless, powerless, lonely, empty, stressful, broken, depressing, stuck on repeat and really pointless and I have to find a way to change all this and have a purpose before it to late and my life is lived in vein!!
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