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Beansidhe0
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Time is dwindling
Disability Support / by Beansidhe0
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 October 24th, 2020
...See more I live in the US for context. I'm starting to feel a panic because I'm 24. In two years I will be off my parents' insurance. I have no idea how I'm going to pay for all of my health concerns. I take five different medications and my doctors are considering more. I'm constantly going in for visits and tests. The insurance offered through my job is mediocre and will require me paying out of pocket way more. How am I possibly going to pay for it all? Is it even worth it?
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New Pain
Disability Support / by Beansidhe0
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 August 13th, 2020
...See more I have had a chronic pain condition for nearly 6 years now. This year I have started suffering from a similar pain. It's been happening since February and I have seen four separate doctors for it. Each of them shrugged it off. I am currently in agony and I am just terrified that this is going to be another issue I'll have for the rest of my life. I have another doctor's appointment next week with a specialist and I swear if I get another "I can't help you." I'm going to break down completely. It is devastating to be in pain all day every day and have nothing to be done about it.
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I think I'll start one
Trauma Support / by Beansidhe0
Last post
 October 4th, 2020
...See more I just need to vent. My abuser is dating my friend. I wasn't super close with her. Especially around the time they got together. I think they've been together for about two years now. I really don't think he's a repeat offender. He never hurt his wife while they were together. I just pray every day that they break up. I just want him to go away. Because he's with her, he's been getting closer and closer to me and my life. It's exhausting to stress every day about where he will show up next or what he is telling her about me. The only way to free myself is to leave everything I know and start fresh. I don't want to have to. Why can't he go? My boyfriend thinks that if I just told people what he did to me five years ago, it would solve everything. He doesn't understand that that would just destroy me all over again as well as destroy my friend's life too. I'm tired. Trauma is exhausting.
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Working from home isn't what I thought it would be
Anxiety Support / by Beansidhe0
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 May 7th, 2020
...See more I am a person who would be happy to stay in my house for the rest of my life. If I never had to leave my bed, life would be grand. However, things aren't going well. In March I finally left my job that was no good for me. I started working for a Professor of mine who picked me specifically for this job. The first two weeks of training were going fairly well. I hadn't learned too much yet, but I was getting there. Then the virus hit. First we just had to reduce staff so everyone went home except me and my bosses. Then we all had to work from home. Since then I have been floundering trying to learn a job from home. While I was catching on very quickly at the office, I feel like I'm not getting anything right at home. I'm also being swamped with work that I simply don't know how to do. Asking for help which would take five minutes in office takes hours online. I have been living in a constant state of high anxiety. I can't seem to accomplish anything. Everything I turn in is wrong so I am hesitant to start anything. That just makes everything pile up which makes my anxiety worse. It is horrible to say with everyone losing their jobs, but this constant state of high anxiety where I can't function even off the clock makes me wish I got laid off.
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Unnoticed
Depression Support / by Beansidhe0
Last post
 May 3rd, 2020
...See more In a lot of communities lately I'm feeling like I'm kind of just there. In the days of quarantine, online is one of the only places to connect to people. No matter where I post, whether it's people I know irl or just online, I feel totally alone. No response to anything I post. No responses to my responses. This feels dramatic to say and I promise it's not a cry for help, but it's really starting to feel like if I went away, no one would notice. I'm feeling very down.
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"We can't help you"
Disability Support / by Beansidhe0
Last post
 May 3rd, 2020
...See more I just need a bit of empathy and perhaps comradery in the awful feeling of being told by doctors that they have found nothing wrong or that they can't help you. You're in pain your life if affected, but nope. Nothing can be done. This is what I was told over and over with my chronic diagnosis, but now I have a new, surprise pain I've been dealing with since January that three separate doctors have shrugged and turned their back on. I almost miss having "just" chronic pain.
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Here I go
Trauma Support / by Beansidhe0
Last post
 April 8th, 2020
...See more I have been in a theater club since I was 16. I was the youngest one there and made a lot of friends. One of my best friends was a man I'll call Ray (not his name). From when I was around 17 to 19 we had a lot of scenes together so we would talk every day. He was about 10 years older then me. When I was 19 my mental health took a bit of a dive and I ended up spending about a week in an inpatient facility for my depression. When I got out, I was still very unstable because my medication was not regulated. I wasn't sleeping and was unable to cope. Ray was the first person I turned to when I got out for support. It was only a few weeks later that he asked me to be his submissive. I had never considered any sort of relationship with this man, but he was in a rough place and so was I so I agreed. The first time I went over to his house I was too scared to have sex with him. He ordered me to drink a few glasses of vodka cranberry "until I was ready". I never drank before, but I did it. I stayed the rest of the weekend. It felt so bad, but all I wanted was his approval. He asked me once off hand if another friend of ours became single if she could come too and I said maybe. Suddenly she did become single and she was coming along the next weekend. I was so upset he'd broken my trust and told her about the relationship. She hated me. I went that weekend too. He later left me for her. I felt so manipulated and used. Now it is all I think about. My partner calls it all rape. I don't know what to think.
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