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Astro09
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A 15 year old Teen that doesnt know better than searching comfort in strangers.

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Having no Goal in Life anymore
General Support / by Astro09
Last post
 15 hours ago
...See more So, I found my way back to this App again after having a really bad Time with my mental health, which I didn't think I could figut against alone- but yeah, I did it. So, welcome back again to my Not so daily Diary where I basically tell about my issues with (probably- I don't know 😭) the worst grammar ever as English is not my first language, lol. My Not so daily Diary also involves not looking at the reply if someone did, because I think at least I have social anxiety. My mom met someone that is now her friend with something called Social Phobia, and well.. surprisingly she has the same issues I have, so I think I have some kind of social phobia but I'm don't wanna make a diagnose or anything, I'm just scared to actually interact with people on here even though this should be a safe space help 😭 Back to the thing I wanted to talk about. How I think about my future and life. Because simply put, I can't say if I willingly want to get older than 20. I do not have aggressive suicide or any thoughts that tell me to end it right now, that's not the issue. The issue is more like- idk what to still do with my life. I have no friends, no job for the future and so on, so.. life is Basically worthless now, isn't it? Still, I wouldn't wanna throw it away. Maybe, someday something life changing will happen? I think long story short my text means I have no joy in life anymore and nothing to loose. *** yes, sign me up for the next Squid Games. (My Humour never leaves.)
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The scary truth about the Future.
General Support / by Astro09
Last post
 November 27th, 2024
...See more Hello, online Family! I haven't been on since like 2 days and I have to say.. it got better. A lot. (My Mental Health not my Grammar) "I can't wait to be a adult" I can still remember always saying that, because I was sick of being a child. Well, if I could I would do everything to not become an adult now. I'm not made to grow into a role where I have to do things myself. I went to school for 8 years, but after I started the 9. Year in 2023 I stopped going. I should be in a higher school or work right now, but instead, I'm doing nothing. I never graduated from School. Now, I'm really worried about my future. I know education is really important. I wouldn't say I'm stupid (Well, maybe Iam 💀) but without the report card of a 9. Schoolyear I can't really find a good job. (If I even find one) To he honest, the jobs here are not my thing anyways. I don't wanna be a hairdresser, a doctor or a cassier. Tbh, I wanna be famous. But how do I do that? I don't mean because of the money, though. I would wanna be famous so I would have a community that supoorts me. Another thing is that I'm scared of being forever alone. Right now, I still have my mom. I live at home. But that will change someday too. What will I do then? Live alone and be depressed? I always say I don't see myself getting older than 20, but I do now. And I don't think it's gonna be a pretty future. I don't wanna be lazy and don't work, of course not. I just don't know what to do. I don't even have negative thoughts right now. I'm just scared of being either homeless, alone or forgotten.
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Future thoughts suck
Newbie Hub / by Astro09
Last post
 November 21st, 2024
...See more Tbh this is kind of a night routine of mine now 😭 I just go into this App and write about my Thoughts, because many People here share a similar Story. Again, my english/Grammar whatever won't be perfect‼️ Talking about the Future my mind immediately becomes a huge, white and cloudy blank space. Why? I don't see myself getting old. I don't see myself dying from old age. I just don't see myself becoming an adult- Now, I never understood People that wanted to live until they are like 80. I mean, if you have a happy life.. why not? But when you are all alone, too anxious to talk to people (I don't even want to look at the replies to my threads, I get more nervous than a giraffe on a tree) why would you wanna turn 30-80 when your life has nothing to offer? Also I don't directly talk about suicide at a young age. I just don't see myself existing in a few years.
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I actually have no idea ‼️
Newbie Hub / by Astro09
Last post
 November 20th, 2024
...See more I'm new to this App/Browser whatever you wanna call it 😭 and tbh, I can imagine making really good friends on here in the Chatrooms, but if I'm honest even my Anxiety is anxious while trying to talk to people here 😃 Well I've been really really lonely (and loneliness makes ne depressed af) and I really wish for that one comfort Zone friend (yk from movies? 😭) and the Problem is I can't just go outside and ask people if they want to be my friends, because People here are rather mean or I'm just too scared to talk to someone. Maybe someday it will work? But where do I find irl friends? And tbh I'm kinda scared of asking if someone wants to be my friend here, because maybe they are Smartschoolboy9 😭 Now don't get me wrong, I'm not completely alone I DO have online friends, but I feel like they only text me when they are bored or their other friends are busy (I'm really sorry if someone just got a crying Emoji Overdose but I'm kinda cringing at writing this because idk if my grammar is good or not 💀)
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Loneliness aka The Hole of Darkness
Depression Support / by Astro09
Last post
 November 20th, 2024
...See more Hey, I'm new here. Idk if my other Post sent but I don't think so, so I'm here writing it ALL again. As I said before, this will maybe have some mistakes as my native language is not English. Im Angelina. Usually, that is my deadname. I'm using that name because I simply don't feel like I'm here anymore. I'm a teen that started daydreaming. It was pretty fun to imagine myself in another world, being popular and having many people care about you. Now I'm not talking about being delulu. I'm talking about straight up "leaving" this reality. I have no idea what other things I did recently than talk to myself, hoping things would change. Right now I mamaged to stop it, but that was one of the biggest mistakes. My depression was ALWAYS triggered by insecurities about my body or Loneliness. I have not one single friend I can just meet up with. I have a few online friends, meaning I'm not completely alone and isolated from the world. Instead of wanting to text them this, I'm writing this to Strangersnonna platform I don't even know how to properly use. I tried telling my mom about my struggles which was not too successful. Well, if you made it to here, I thank you for reading this. I was writing this while laying in bed and questioning why I have to exist. Why me? Why can I not give my life away to someone that died in war or something? I want someone to take me into their arms and tell me it's okay. That it will get better. A comfort person. Something, I'll never have. -Astro. A person who didn't get a hug in 8 years
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