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Ashley2508
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PathStep 11 Compassion hearts72 Forum posts38 Forum upvotes46 Current upvotes46 Age GroupTeen Last activeJuly, 2024 Member sinceMarch 14, 2023
Bio

I am really want to get better mentally. I am trying my best to achieve this. I’m sorry I’m not active a lot, I often forget I even have this account 😅

Struggle with anxiety which branches out into a lot of other things. I don’t mind telling about most of it so if you’d like to know, you just have to ask. 

I love a lot of various things. I have experience in some things more than others. It really just depends on when I started.


Recent forum posts
Light at the end of the tunnel
Journals & Diaries / by Ashley2508
Last post
March 2nd
...See more Tw: Heavy subjects. Hi! Okay, when I first made this account almost an exact year ago, I never thought I’d even be here to this day. I was so hopeless and just desperate for anything to help me out of the pain I was suffering. I was so close to just giving up in an attempt to not have to live through this pain any longer. If someone told me a year ago that I’d be here, I never in a million years would’ve believed them. I haven’t been this happy in YEARS. I had been struggling for so long. A year ago, I didn’t even think that I’d live to see my middle school graduation. Now, I’m 2/3 into my freshman year. The first couple months were a struggle, but I finally found something that has helped me. This January, I got put on birth control. I didn’t want to do it necessarily, I didn’t like the idea of having to rely on pills, but I was so desperate for something to work and willing to try anything. Two months later, I’m better than I ever had been in a long, long time. 3 years at the least. Birth control helps regulate hormones which help anxiety and depression. It was hard for a month, my period lasted that whole month, but I was so worth it. Now, I’m on my high school’s softball team. I’m smiling at school. I don’t feel so alone and outcasted. ***, I can wake up in the morning and not have a panic attack. I can actually make it to school. I can get through my classes. I am able to do the things that I desperately wanted, to be able to do what the kids my age are able to. Be able to function and not be on the verge of a break down every moment of every second. I’m almost a year clean from sh. I will be on march 23 so it’s this month. I can’t believe it. Some of my scars are still there but they have faded a lot. I can’t believe it. I was supposed to be gone a long time ago. Now I’m striving. I thought I was doomed to suffer forever, I was a such a low place. Even 2 months ago I was struggling so bad. The past 2 months have been of lots of healing, improvement and change. 2 months ago I wouldn’t even believe I am doing this well. With this message, I just want to say, have hope. The past 5 years have been a struggle for me and yet I’m here and better than I ever thought I’d be. As someone who had no hope for anything and was about to preform something stupid and permanent, I want to say that it will get better. Recovery is possible and I wish the best to those who are going through some hard times. Thank you for reading and I apologize for the long post. There’s hope for recovery, even if you might not believe it. I definitely didn’t until now. I hope this message can help in anyway and if someone has any questions at all, please ask. I’d love to answer. Have a wonderful day!
I need advice please
General Support / by Ashley2508
Last post
October 2nd, 2023
...See more I don’t really know where this goes or where to put this thread under so I just chose this one. I apologize for how long this thread is in advance. I have this one friend who struggles with their mental health. I’m someone who people tend to cling onto because I somehow look like I have my *** together when I really don’t. I’ve been known o be the “mom” friend or the “therapist” friend. So, this one person naturally clung onto me. At first it wasn’t too bad. I was in a fine mental head space and I could deal with someone else’s problems. I was healthy enough to take care of them and give them all the attention they wanted. Now however, my mental health is ***. I still look out together but I’m really not. Now, I can’t give them all that attention that I used to be able to. Being around them drains me completely. I have low energy constantly and every day I dread seeing them. My life is going *** at the moment and I have nothing to give anymore. I feel horrible and like the worst person in the world. But I can’t keep up anymore. I want to be there for them and I want to help them but I can’t. They’ve clung onto me and I don’t know what to do. They think we’re best friends but I can’t even be myself around them. They think they know me but they are clinging onto the idea of me that they have in their brain, not actually me. I want the best for them and I want them to find someone who’s stable enough to stay with them. But I’m not that person. I feel like ***. And I hate that I can’t do more for them. But I feel so fake when I’m around them and they don’t deserve that. I don’t know what to do. Does anyone have any advice?
I’d like some advice
General Support / by Ashley2508
Last post
April 17th, 2023
...See more I’m going to a therapy session for the first time soon. I’m kinda nervous but I’ve wanted therapy for a while now. Does anyone have any tips, advice, or suggestions? Anything I should know of before hand? I’d love to know.
High school Dilemma
General Support / by Ashley2508
Last post
March 29th, 2023
...See more TW: suicide I’ll be going on to high school soon and I’m really terrified. I am hardly surviving the eighth grade. I don’t see myself making it through eighth grade none the less high school. All of middle school has been a struggle for me. I hear it’s going to get much harder from here. Does anyone have any tips or advice? I don’t want anything buttered up. I want the truth.
Crocheting ideas needed
Arts & Crafts / by Ashley2508
Last post
April 6th, 2023
...See more I want to make a friend a gift out of crochet. I don’t know what to make. I have a limited amount yarn and I need to have their present done before Thursday. The colors I have are a marbled blue, black, white, yellow, and a light blue. All are 5mm acrylic yarn. Does anyone have any ideas on what to make?
Starting to journal, I need help on a decision.
General Support / by Ashley2508
Last post
March 31st, 2023
...See more I wanna start journaling for my mental health. The problem is, I don’t know how I want to do it. Should I do it digitally or on a physical book? The both have their pros and cons. What do you think?
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