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ArianaMay
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When your blamed for what happened...
Trauma Support / by ArianaMay
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 March 16th, 2019
...See more The topic of this thread probably speaks to one of the reasons Im in a very bad place right now. Im getting many mixed messages. I have a trauma therapist trying to reinforce in my brain what happened to me (which I dont want to discuss)?wasnt my fault. Its very hard for me to be honest with others. Lately I feel so exhausted as if Im carrying bricks. I can barely get up. I cant do the things I want even though the desire is there. The sadness and loneliness is horrible. My eating disorder is just bringing me down fast. Recently I was honest about that with a few people and how stupid that was. Im ashamed enough already but there reaction made me feel like crawling into a wall and hiding there for good. It was awful. I told my best friend about something that happened to me quite a few years back and instead of being supportive her reaction was telling me what she felt I should have done. God talk about reinforcing the feeling it was completely my fault. I feel horrible. I feel so stupid. I should know by now I cant be honest with people. I feel the pain Im in now is my fault because I should know better by now. Im not in a good place and its so hard alone.
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Confused about my Values
Eating Disorder Support / by ArianaMay
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 April 29th, 2018
...See more Hey everybody, Does anyone ever find they can get confused about what they value or who they are sometimes? For me that's been coming up a lot in therapy - questions about what I value, my interests etc. I've been so frustrated trying to separate myself from my eating disorder. When I think about what's important to me now I'm not sure where my motivation comes from. I'm not sure how to work through that. It's an awful feeling to feel lost in that way.
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