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Alwaysaway81
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Letting go of hope
Relationship Stress / by Alwaysaway81
Last post
 May 26th, 2020
...See more I've been single for nearly a month now. There hasn't been any contact for a couple of weeks. I'm finding it very difficult to let go of hope even though I know that I have to. I've been using this time for self reflection to figure myself out and to become a better person. I have been seeing a therapist who is helping me through this, but how do I get past this feeling that she will reach out when I know that she won't?
Confused
Relationship Stress / by Alwaysaway81
Last post
 May 18th, 2020
...See more I am going through a breakup that I believe is due to covid. We had an excellent relationship prior to covid. We decided to stay together instead of spending who knows how long apart. Staying together did not go well. I immediately started to shut down and became very depressed not leaving her place. The only thing I really was doing was taking my dog for walks. Because of shutting down I stopped doing anything, other then working from her recliner. She was still working and I don't think she realized the toll that it all was taking on me. When she asked me to leave and then broke up with me, she said I wasn't reliable and couldn't be with me because of that. That hurt deeply as I am reliable and I know that becoming depressed really changed who I normally am. I struggled deeply to communicate with her and that is alot of this. She has since stopped contact with me and wants absolutely nothing to do with me. I'm very confused over this as its not something I would do and find it extremely confusing. I've since started seeing a therapist and have found out that it is deeply rooted issues stemming from my childhood. Essentially that my safest place is withdrawing and not allowing myself to be vulnerable. I reached out to her explaining what I have been learning about myself, but have received no response. I'm convincing myself that I don't need her, but I know deep down I want to have her along with me while I learn about myself. I dont know that I have any real questions for everyone here, I'm just very confused and at a loss on where I should go from here.
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