There is a lot I could share here. 

I'm 42 and live in the USA. For now, I'm married. Maybe polyamorous. Having relationship issues, possibly abusive. Not sure where to go with that.

I'm having somewhat of a "midi-life crisis". I'm asking the questions "Who am I really?" and "What do I want?" I feel like I have been following people and not really MY desires. So, there is that to figure out as well.

I want to publish books, both fiction and nonfiction. I want to travel. I would like to live maybe in the country, not sure. If love comes my way again, want to be able to have a relationship that is healthy. 

I love to dance and sing. I would like to try tai chi as well. I want to find out new things about myself that are all ME. 

I think my "overcoming" things as in there, but I will spell it out. I'm afraid of a lot of things. I'm afraid of never finding what I seek. I am afraid that my voice will be silenced. I'm afraid I won't get those answers above answered. Will I figure out who I truly am? Will my wants happen? Maybe I need to make a bucket list or at least just a list of the main things I want to accomplish. That might help. 

I hope to find some answers here and meet some nice people.

P.S. There is still lots to tell.