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ALonelyMirath
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PathStep 13 Compassion hearts8 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes1 Current upvotes1 Age GroupAdult Last activeJuly, 2017 Member sinceJuly 11, 2017
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I'm 22, FTM transgender, and I live in the rural area of Hereford.

I enjoy listening to a wide variety of metal music and game soundtracks, playing video games on my PS4, and also trying to get around writers block.
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Newbie Hub / by ALonelyMirath
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 July 12th, 2017
...See more So, hello there, I hope I can find a place in this forum. And to stay on a forum for more than a few days before disappearing, I think this place will help me out. I have a few issues I think I need to work through, and I do think they are all connected in some way. The first - I'm FTM transgender, and only just starting my transition and learning how to be comfortable with who I am as an internal identity, so that can often lead to self-hate whenever dysphoria flares up, but that has been getting rarer over the months. I guess I'm just nervous, even though the only opinions I really care about are those of my parents. The second - I have found I'm quite prone to loneliness (both online and offline), but anxiety keeps me from going out and finding physical people outside of my workplace. So I try and surround myself with people online, but even then I don't like starting a conversation due to feeling like I'm annoying them further. And finally, the one that I've only just seriously thought about after much connecting of things that happened in my past, but it's a very long story. To keep it short, I'm in a long-distance relationship with a wonderful MTF woman, and from the way I've been acting towards her... I think it borders on/is abusive. Really I'm only her because of her, because she knows I don't want to hurt her, I never do, and she said she'd help me in any way she could. So if you guys have any advice, we'd both appreciate it.
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